Outfit of the Day 25.1.2014

The photos are on purpose taken with a slow shutter. I like the effect!
Jeans H&M, Top Osiris Clothing, Cardigans blue one I don't know and green one Gina Tricot.

It's So Cold Out There

It's -20 degrees centigrade here and it's really cold indoors as well, which is why I haven't been online and haven't posted  anything in days. It's just way too cold to sit by my computer right now and I don't have internet or a mouse for my laptop which is in a warmer room.
So yeah, first time since I started this blog have I skipped a day, or two to be precise.

Here are some photos from outside, when I still dared venture there...

Today's thoughts and photos - flu season and make up bags

I got a fever today, not a high one, but high enough to keep me away from the gym and stuck in bed all day. I can barely breathe, my nose is so stuffed. I hate having these tiny little colds every month, I'm so tired of always being sick and not having the strength to get up and do something. I just want to live a normal unsick life. Although I suppose these days that sort of thing isn't normal at all, everybody's sick with something and nobody can get away from life.

I did go see my psychiatric nurse today, even with the cold. Had to go to the pharmacy and bank too, but that's unimportant. I got a BDI test to do, and it seems I am depressed. It's up to her to define how depressed and up to me to figure out why and how to get rid of it. I don't know why I'm depressed. Not really. I know why I'm sad, but sadness doesn't create suicidal thoughts. I think? I don't know. I wish I could see her tomorrow and ask these things from her, but I have to wait a week. I can of course always call her, but I think that would border on annoying.

This is my first month without school work. Without studying. Without essays or exams or lectures. This is my first month of my sabbatical and I don't really feel much better. I feel a bit empty to be honest, but  I know I couldn't handle studying now. I just couldn't handle having to stress over minute things when I'm struggling with life itself.

I pierced my ear yesterday, made a second hole in my left ear. Now I'm letting it heal. I'm stretching my right earlobe now, but first only a little. Hopefully soon I'll get to change the pin into a bigger one. I know it's a slow process, because we don't want any injuries.

Noticed I have way too much make up for one make up bag. I have like five make up bags all full of things, and that's not even all of my make up. And it's stuff I use every now and again, can't just throw them out. I need to get a bigger make up bag, but don't really know where to look or what to look for! Maybe I should go to one of those manly building stuff stores and buy me a huge box for nails and hammers and use that for make up. Might be even a bit cheaper than getting a big make up box...

Cold Wear and MOTD 19.1.2014

Cold and Clear

Today's thoughts: 30 Shreds and Fire

We went to my dad's neurologist's appointment today. I won't tell you anything more about that now, not yet.
I should hear from my shrink's office for days now, but nobody tries to call me. I should get a nurse assigned to me, but nothing's happened yet.

It's been really cold now a couple of days, and today it got so cold that my dad was okay with us starting to heat the wood oven in our kitchen. It warms up the whole house really well, so maybe I turn off my radiator once  it's all warm and cozy in my room.

Haven't been feeling very well the last few days. Today I threw up in the morning, felt really really ill. And no, I can't be pregnant. But still, feeling sick like that is not normal for me, I wonder if all the visits to Porvoo hospital gave me some annoying bug that's now reeking havoc in my system.

I bought some bleach today, should dye my hair again, but that'll have to wait till the weekend when we go to sauna. Without the sauna warming the shower area, it's way too cold to strip and shower there... way way too cold. Like 14 degrees centigrade. In our kitchen it's now a nice 16 degrees. In my room more like 22...I really take heat better these days, I need warmer climates.

I haven't had a panic attack today, haven't felt any anxiousness either, just nausea. I feel worried though, but that's because of my dad's thing.

Got something wonderful in the mail as well today! I ordered Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred from CDON.com last week and have been anxiously waiting for it to come and today I got it. It's a real toughy for me, but I'll try my best to keep up! I'll tell you about my progress as the month goes by. Boy did that first 20 minutes shred me totally, but it felt really good finally doing something again, and twenty minutes aren't that much so I can easily do this every day now!

Also got something to collect from the post office, but that I'll do tomorrow.

Indoor Equipment

It's seriously freezing in our house.

Cute Seal

Yeah....that's it. Cute, right?

Nighttime fitness

Personally, I prefer to do all my weight training and aerobic exercising during the hours of the night, when the sun isn't shining. I find that daylight should be preserved for daytime activities, and the night for both sleep and fitness.

Now I usually wake up around five for a moment, just long enough to do my weight exercises, and my aerobic exercising I usually do during the evening when it's just gone dark, because it's just that much more comfortable. And it's much cooler, so it's easier to go on without sweating like a pig. I hate sweating, not a good thing when trying to get fit.

What do you guys think? Is it better or worse doing fitness during the night?

Outfit of the Day 7.12.2013

So today I was wearing basically what I wear every bleeding day these days, since it's so cold here. At least I think it's so very cold. Which is actually good, 'cause it makes me want to move more and run around the table and stuff like that, so in that way yeah, good.
But I hate freezing, so I wear like four layers of clothing. Today I had on a turtle neck woolly shirt from my dad, my dad's old army uniform under shirt (which for me is a dress) and his army woolly pullover I told you about yesterday. It's like 50 years old now and in perfect condition!

Also I wear my pink beanie and my black scarf most of the time, for these pictures I skipped the scarf and took the hat off at some point, but still...I wear those. And the belt is an old army belt as well, got it here in Finland.