Darkness in My Heart

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Das grosse Märchenbuch - All you can read buffet of fairytales

I love this book so much I can't even describe. It was my favourite as a kid and my Finnish version is already almost falling apart by the seams, so my dad gave me the original german print! I'm so so happy. Especially because the drawings are the same on both prints, and I just love the pictures in this book, they're both beautiful and terrifying at the same time.

I also really like that it's a fairytale book from all around Europe, so it's got old Slavic tales and old English tales and old German tales all mixed together in the one book, and it gives a  much better and broader view of the fairytale world of Europe, what similarities and differences there are. I especially enjoy the old Slavic tales, they're really freaky.

The book is written down by Christian Strich and illustrated by Tatjana Hauptmann.

Make up of the day 2 and html help from Yuna

Geek Chic Cosmetics eyeshadows Stormcrow and You Know Who.

I also got really good advice and help from the wonderful Yuna van Vengeance from http://www.singforwhatyoufeelinside.blogspot.de/ and she helped me create my own banner exchange on my page "Lovelies". Hope you'll go check it out and check her blog out too! +Yuna van Vengeance

Saw my shrink today and Make up of the Day 1

So today I finally got to see the shrink here in Sipoo, which is no easy task I'm sure, but I'm glad they rushed things for me, because now I feel a lot better about life in general.
I got some advice for my sleeping problems and also got to vent basically everything that's been running through my head for the last few months or quite a few months before that as well to be honest.

He's not going to be the same person that's going to be my therapist, that person will call me in the next half a week or so, I so hope they're nice as well! I'm so nervous about things like this, it's no wonder I suffer from anxiety issues. Anyway, I need to calm myself down now really well, because I have no diazepam to keep me calm if I get a panic attack, so it's up to me to try and stop them from coming.
I get them all the time. I still get them. And I'm not even in a hospital. Other things have started triggering them with me - like the dumbest tiniest things - I called our dog the wrong name, I noticed a DVD I watched when my mother was ill and stuff like that. Just not things you should get panic attacks about.

Anyhoo, here's my first make up of the day today, what I had when I went to see the doctor and pharmacy and such. It's a very light combination of Geek Chic Cosmetics eyeshadows Stormcrow and Anarchist Priest. I also drew in my eyebrows slightly darker.