My new Converse

Yesterday my dad brought me the package from Boozt.com that was waiting for me in the post office - it had two new pairs of Converse and I am so so happy with these! They came really fast, ordering was simple and hopefully paying will be just as simple, and the size is just perfect!

I bought two pairs (I got greedy) - one pair is dark red and one has the union jack!

Snow, ponds and feeling better

Still in the hospital and probably will be here for quite some time to come, but I feel a hell of a lot better. The cortison helped to take away some of the swelling in my neck and throat - my lymph nodes are a bit swollen still but not a lot anymore and they don't hurt that much anymore. My throat still hurts like a bitch, but at least now (finally) I'm getting actual painkillers. I managed to plead long enough for them to agree to give me oxycodone when I really need it. Which is only about twice a day now, since the swelling has gone down.

I'm getting my antibiotics through the IV but everything else I'll be taking as pills, which is awesome. And I'm allowed to eat now that I can (thanks to the painkillers) and I feel so incredibly happy just to be able to drink a bottle of coke without wanting to die. Before it felt like one gulp could tear my throat in two but now it feels completely normal with just a slight sting. Slight sting. Jesus, one day and this much progress! It's fantastic!

And I'm pretty sure I'll be getting to speak to a psychiatric nurse soonish - I did ask the first day I was here, but it didn't go further, but today during the doctors' rounds, they told me that yes they know and I should get to speak to someone at some point. Which is great, 'cause I've really been feeling quite anxious here. I haven't had the time to see my regular psychologist, so this is already long overdue to speak to someone, so I really can't wait to load things off my chest!

Now that I have the catheter on my neck, I don't need to have an IV in my arm or hand or anywhere, so I can actually use my hands normally again! Which again, fantastic! Hopefully I'll only miss a few days of school next week and not the entire week. I don't know yet though, but all my teachers are fine with this so I'm sure I can deal with the courses even if I end up missing the entire week. Hope not though, we have team projects and I feel bad about not being there.

Also I got a text message from my post office that two shoes that I ordered have arrived! I cannot wait. They're awesome!

Yes, this painkiller might be making me a tad hyper, but hey, I'm almost pain free! So I don't care what's making me hyper, I am happy.

Every day I go out for a walk (and sorry to say also a smoke) and today there's snow on the ground as well! It's really pretty. Aurora hospital, though in Helsinki, is a nice place: right on a hill, old buildings scattered around, small unkempt park with a pretty little pond. Went to see the pond today and it was frozen over!

My new Creepers

So here's a photoset of my own knock off Creepers - brand is London and they're really nice to wear (although the comfiness came after three days of blistering agony). I bought them off of Ebay and am super happy I did, since they really are nice shoes.
The laces were horrid and opened all the time, and after getting drunk one night I lost them, so I had to switch them to these two lovely pink laces!

Creepermania!

So I went Creepers crazy too, big surprise, and bought my own knock offs from Ebay a few weeks ago. They arrived and they're perfect even if they gave me horrid blisters the first time I wore them. Now they're worn in, and just perfect. I don't have a picture of them yet, so just enjoy all these Creepers found on Tumblr:

My New Shoes

Bought this pair of lovelies from Dresslily.com and boy are they amazing! I wish the weather was good enough for me to start wearing them right now, but I think it's best I wait till it's not frozen outside anymore.

What do you think? Aren't they gorgeous?

Over Knee Boots

I've been seriously considering buying a pair of these, since I'm always freezing these days, and I really don't want my legs to be cold.
Now I do have a pair of combat boots, and some really warm winter boots, but neither go above mid calf, so I always need either really warm over knee socks, or then leg warmers. So it would be easier to just have a pair of over knee boots that would keep the cold wind of wintery Finland off of my legs!

Today's DIY: Colouring in some ugly old shoes

I got these horrid shoes that I only wore once, and hated every second, but they still fit me, so I decided to upgrade them a bit and make them colourful:

1. Take ugly shoes

2. Take felt pens, I used my copics, since I use them so rarely these days

3. Watch some Stargate at the same time

4. Enjoy your end product!

Photos XVIII: White

This is my white post. I find the colour white to be much more of a sad colour than black, so I use it more as a colour of sadness than maybe others here in the western world. I removed some friends out of my life yesterday because of a lack of respect. Not on their part, but on mine, I just cannot find a way to respect them anymore and thus I cannot fathom how I could stay friends with them. I need to feel at least some trust towards my friends.

Though it was my decision to remove them, to delete them from my life basically, because I am not really going to see them much anymore, I do feel sad about it, because they were my mentors for the past three and a half years of studying English with them. They were the sort of people I could go to if I didn't know what to do and the sort of people I always knew would help, or at least point me to the right direction. Which is why this all is so much worse. They refused to help someone I know needs support, simply because it has nothing to do with our studies, and I find it impossible to find respect towards them anymore. We were equals this year, I felt, because I had already done my BA thesis, and they were still doing theirs, though older than me, but now, I feel like they're little children trying to play better than they really are.

So, I am both sad and angry, but I refuse to let my anger overtake me, because that would be an extremely bad idea in all possible ways. Which is why I just deleted them and will go on with my life. However, I decided to make this photopost regardless, because I think it's only fair that I mourn this situation for at least a second.

Alysha Nett

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