Selfiemania: My normal day at hospital and my hair crisis

I'll start with my hair crisis. Well it's not exactly a crisis, it's just something that's been annoying me for a while now. I was able to cut my fringe here with some really crappy scissors and it turned out just about okay, it does not look good, but at least it's not hideous.
But I would so so so like to dye my hair green-blue, sort of mermaidlike hair, but I can't since I'm in a hospital and just can't do stuff like that. I'd have to bleach first and then use three different hair dyes to get what I want, and it would be such a mess that I think they'd charge me something for the cleaning.
And I am so not doing that.

But to my normal day at hospital:
I wake up around half past six, go and have a smoke.
Then I get some tea (I've refused breakfast 'cause I'm just not hungry that early).
Wait a while for something to happen, have another smoke, see my doctor at around 10:30.
 After that it's most like visitor's time. If no one is coming, I go for a relatively long walk around the hospital, upstairs and then cantine, smoke, downstairs, smoke, back to the ward.
Then it's already lunch time. That's when I actually do eat.
I get all kinds of meds through out the day, including heparin shots to my stomach (which is full of quite beautiful bruises at the moment).
I go for another walk, smoke, take some pain meds because of all the walking around and maybe have a nap.
Usually write some blog post in between some boring activity.
At three or four my dad comes, we go to the cantine, then I get my supper, and around sixish my dad leaves again. I always miss him when he leaves, but he has to go take care of Billie. I wish I could just have Billie here with me all the time.
Then I just wait around for the evening snack which for me is tea, ice cubes and some cheese. I love cheese.
I get my evening meds, and some sedatives, and wait for the ten o'clock when I get my last heparin shot and my sleeping pill. Oh and I do go have a smoke right before nine when the doors to the ward close.
I'm a real chimney here, but it calms me down, so no one has complained about it yet. I will stop smoking at some point, but definitely not now.

Many shades of green

I really want my green hair back, bbut I was thinking some ombre or other effect with bright greens and dark greens. Any tips how I could get that done?





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Why do I always do this?

So about two months ago I dyed my hair again - bright red. It was fine for a few days, but I realised that it was way way too orange for my liking, so I bought a new dye. And it ended up a dark magenta.
Okay, I'm quite happy with the colour, it's really pretty.
However, I still have no idea why I keep dyeing my hair red when I really really want green hair again! I mean seriously need to have green hair. I think about it most days and it's really frustrating 'cause it's so unimportant and yet so constant in my mind.
Have to dye again.

Anyway, I used a few Directions colours for the red (no pics I'm afraid): vermillion and fire and a third I can't remember. For the pink one it was rose red, which isn't that pink but it ended up being really pink in my hair. I used the Directions bleaching kit for the first time and I was constantly afraid my hair would fall off but everything went perfectly fine and looked good. Took a lot less time too to bleach!

The rose red I used is a bit of a hassle though. For some reason it doesn't want to stay in my hair whatsoever, everything in our house is pink now! If I so much as brush my fingers through my hair, my hand is so pink that it stains everything I touch! It's horrible. Absolutely horrible. And this is definitely the first time something like this happens.
Although it might be because I don't wash my hair as often during autumn and winter, since it's pretty cold and it's so uncomfortable in the cold shower. And my hair doesn't bleed for like a day after I wash it, so it might be caused by oil in the scalp. I don't know. It's annoying anyhow!

Here's what I'd love to have:

Minty Green

I've had this terrible urge these last couple of days to dye my hair mint green. And I don't even have money. So probably not going to happen for a while, but here's some lovely mint green heads:

Today's thoughts on Summer and clothing

Hello there again, it's been a while hasn't it? I haven't really had anything to say, no that's not true, I just haven't felt like being online.

I have had a lot of things to think about. Firstly, I am going to Canada, though it seemed like I might not be able to. So I'm really excited and a bit nervous about the whole thing, but in a good way. I've also been checking what sort of things I could go and see as I'm spending more than two weeks in Toronto. My first stop will definitely be Canada's biggest zoo. I love zoos with all my heart and am probably going to spend two days there! There's also a huge amusement park which I really want to go to and a bookstore named "The World's Biggest Bookstore". Not to mention all the shopping and Chinatown and everything. I just can't wait.

Secondly, I've been feeling a tad better, I don't have as many panic attacks but I still got some diazepam for my trip so in case I get an attack I don't need to go to the hospital since it's outside of EU and thus more expensive for me. That's sort of making me a bit nervous 'cause just knowing I might not be able to pay for the care is giving me a bit of anxiety.

Thirdly, I've been thinking of trying to get going my own clothing line. I draw a lot, I love drawing, and I have some ideas, but I'm not sure if my talents are good enough for doing something like that. It'll be a small thing, I think I'm going to start with just t-shirts and jumpers and maybe bags. I just need to start drawing some sketches and see where I'll be able to publish them.
Do any of my readers have ideas concerning this? I mean, do you know any good sites for ordering or also printing t-shirts? Maybe even so that they do the work and I just gather up the drawings and give to them?

And fourthly, how do I get this crummy blue hair dye off my hair? I've already bleached it and it's still sticking to my hair like glue it's really weird.

Oh and my anti-anxiety pills are giving me some trouble. You know how some pills can give you mood swings and dryness of mouth and maybe some constipation. Well guess what, I'd love to have those instead of my problems. I can deal with the decrease of libido, jesus I was a complete slut before I started my pills so a bit of calming down is just good for me, but lactating. Lactating. I am not kidding. I am not pregnant and I am jesusfuckingchrist lactating.
Now it's waiting for my test results of my prolactin levels to see where the problem lies and how big the problem is. Has any of you who use pills for anxiety and depression ever had this problem?

Also it's a crappy day today, but oh well, hopefully tomorrow will be a bit better.

OOTD and my two sided septum!

I decided to punch myself my septum again, because I missed it...this time it's not crooked, but I ended up dropping the ball on the floor (can't find it anywhere) and so it has one ball and one spike now. Oh well.
And look how blonde my hair got! I never thought it could go that blonde. Still not sure if it suits me, but hey, there's always a first for everything right? Next it's gonna get blue!

So, pink hair now

I ended up dyeing my hair yesterday and though the dye was a mix of Directions' Atlantic Blue and Rose Red, it ended up more pink than violet. I diluted the dye with some conditioner (or more like a lot of it) so it's a lot less intense than it would've been.
I still have some dye left, but I think I'll keep that till after my entrance exams - I have some in late April so I have to dye to blonde again at that point. Don't dare go to interviews with pink hair...
What do you guys think? Does it look good? How about what do you guys think about going to job interviews or school interviews with crazy hair? Would you do it or would you dilute your craziness to a "normal" level?
How about piercings? My stretches are up to an 8 mm, and going to 10 next week, I'm going to be wearing basic plugs and some ordinary hoops for the interviews, but what would you do?

Third Bleach on My Way to White Heaven

My third bleaching went well, as well as I could've hoped for, but I'm still left with some yellow-orange strands. Not nearly as many as before, so I'm happy about that. Definitely not white hair yet, but with enough silver shampoo, maybe soonish!

Because the photos don't accurately show the bleached hair, I did a small video of it too.

With a New Haircut - Maybe New Hair Dye? White Hair Inspo

This is a bit of inspiration for getting platinum blonde hair. I've never had my hair that blonde, but I want to try it out! I'm getting tired of the green, though it's pretty, but I want something new again, so I've bought all the dyes and bleaches and hope to achieve something along the line of these that I found on Tumblr.
All photos from Tumblr.

Haluaisin värjätä hiukseni näin valkoisiksi ja ehkä sen teenkin tässä piakkoin. Kaikki kuvat Tumblrista.

Blog Parade: Tattoos, Crazy Hair and Body Mods in Everyday Life

Jenn from http://thehellofeverything.blogspot.de/ hosts a blog parade on the subject of tattoos, body modifications in general and special hair dyes in everyday life. What it's like, what reactions has one gotten and that sort of thing.

Today is my turn to write about this. I will start with hair dye since that's the biggest for me. I change my hair colour about once in two months, and I change it from blue to red to violet to green to black and hopefully white at some point, which means that I look a bit different from the rest of the population for quite some time.

Now I don't work, I'm a student, which gives me a special sort of perspective to this, because in a university it's not that important what you look like, you'll still do well whatever you look like. Very unlike in the business world.

I've never gotten any negative reactions to my hair colours, ever. The only person who can't stand them is my dad, even my gran likes them! So for my part I've never noticed any negativity towards me just because of the way I look.

Actually, most of the time people compliment me on my hair. When I was working in a grocery store and had dark pink hair dye, an older lady came to me and told me I look so beautiful in my hair and wished she was younger so she could pull it off too! It made my day.
And when I worked for a while in a kindergarten I got the best reviews of my hair from the little ones. They all loved my crazy hair colours and every time the told me that that's their favourite colour of aaaalll colours. It was so cute.

Now to the subject of tattoos. I have only a few tattoos, and all of them are quite easily coverable, but I try my best to show them off, since I love them. Older people have been apprehensive as to why I would ever consider getting any and my dad thinks I'm insane, but other than that I've only gotten good reviews. One of my teachers liked the shading in my chest piece and showed his tattoo to me because of it, and one of my dad's oldest friends, an old lady, artistic and energetic, said she doesn't like that it's forever on my skin, but congratulated me on the art itself. Said I was a very good artist (it's a tattoo I drew myself). She was very impressed.

Most of the time I don't get any comments or anything from people when it comes to hair and tattoos, nobody really pays attention to me in that sense. And I think that's good. When people don't notice you even if you're a walking rainbow, it means they've gotten used it and that makes life a lot easier for people with body mods.

As I don't have any piercings (yet) I can't get into that, but I have friends who have tongue piercings, lip piercings and septum piercings, and they do fine in life. Personally I think that's the way it should be.

A person's professionalism shouldn't be judged by their looks but by their actions.

From Tumblr

However, I do understand that in certain workplaces it's just not okay to wear all piercings. Lab technicians and cooks for example have to wear protective gear anyways, so I wouldn't say it's a horrible thing to have to take the piercing out for a work day. You can always put the piercing back! But to not get a job because you have yellow hair, is something I cannot agree with, though it in this society would take authority away from the person. We are all valued based on our looks, and that's a difficult thing to change.
I hope that once at some point it will change, and all body mods will be acceptable in  all areas of everyday life.

From Tumblr

Once I get out of here

I'm again having a small hair discussion with myself, and am thinking, again, of maybe trying to get my hair into a mint green. Now that it's a dark green, I don't really know how I could accomplish my goal, but maybe I'll find a way, or maybe some of you may have ideas as to what I could do?
Or even should I try pastel green hair?

Here's some inspiration from Tumblr: