22.2.14
Today's thoughts on piercings and failure
I know the title seems a bit harsh and really depressed again, but I'm feeling relatively good right now. I feel like I have something to look forward to and it's keeping me happy and satisfied without having to resort to sedatives or sleeping.
But I do keep failing at basically everything. I can't take good photos anymore, I can't draw anymore, I've never been able to sing, I'm failing in my diet (just had bacon) and thus failing at weight loss and creating actual weight gain, without getting more muscles, and my dad seems so disappointed in me every day. Probably because of the piercings but still. Oh and I fail at hair dye, my head just doesn't want to get really platinum blonde. But I will keep trying.
About piercings, I bought a couple of barbells and a ring so I'll be piercing a bit more of myself in the coming weeks. Not anything harsh, just another earring, nothing big or fancy. I'm terrified of piercing my own septum so I will definitely NOT be doing that, but will keep to non-cartilidge areas of my body.
Oh and I've managed to have some non-failing progress on my stretching! I've stretched my right earlobe to 4 mm and the left one to 3 mm. Hoping that in a week or so, I can have the left one at 4 mm too, so that I'll be able to stretch them simultaneously rather than one after the other.
My hair dyeing process is keeping me busy too, tomorrow I'll be bleaching it again and see what happens. Probably almost nothing if memory serves right. I tend to not go whiter than piss. Serves me for having the ginger gene I suppose.
I'm also happy about the make up project, because it gives me a reason to take pictures every day and not slack like with the photography challenge. Which btw will continue today. I hate abbreviations. And I still use them.
But I do keep failing at basically everything. I can't take good photos anymore, I can't draw anymore, I've never been able to sing, I'm failing in my diet (just had bacon) and thus failing at weight loss and creating actual weight gain, without getting more muscles, and my dad seems so disappointed in me every day. Probably because of the piercings but still. Oh and I fail at hair dye, my head just doesn't want to get really platinum blonde. But I will keep trying.
About piercings, I bought a couple of barbells and a ring so I'll be piercing a bit more of myself in the coming weeks. Not anything harsh, just another earring, nothing big or fancy. I'm terrified of piercing my own septum so I will definitely NOT be doing that, but will keep to non-cartilidge areas of my body.
Oh and I've managed to have some non-failing progress on my stretching! I've stretched my right earlobe to 4 mm and the left one to 3 mm. Hoping that in a week or so, I can have the left one at 4 mm too, so that I'll be able to stretch them simultaneously rather than one after the other.
My hair dyeing process is keeping me busy too, tomorrow I'll be bleaching it again and see what happens. Probably almost nothing if memory serves right. I tend to not go whiter than piss. Serves me for having the ginger gene I suppose.
DIY Knitted Headband
So I've been knitting again while watching SG-Atlantis so I decided to knit another headband. I've already once knitted one, and I love it, so I wanted to see if I'll love this one too. It's a bit lighter than the previous one since the yarn is very thin, but I think it's still warm enough to keep my ears happy.
I knitted it without any patter with alternating 2 knit, 2 purl, with the first loop of the row lifted, not knitted.
Olen taas pitkästä aikaa neulonut, ja tällä kertaa hiusnauhan: 2 o, 2 n, rivin ensimmäinen nostetaan neulomatta.
I knitted it without any patter with alternating 2 knit, 2 purl, with the first loop of the row lifted, not knitted.
Olen taas pitkästä aikaa neulonut, ja tällä kertaa hiusnauhan: 2 o, 2 n, rivin ensimmäinen nostetaan neulomatta.
Make Up Make Up, All that Make Up: Starting a Make Up Project
So you may have noticed that almost all if not all of my make up of the days have been done with Geek Chic Cosmetics eyeshadows. I rarely use anything else these days hence the idea of a project. The idea I got from +Alicja P. 's blog project with both beauty and fashion, where she posts on her blog Hate Me or Love Me both new arrangements of clothing and new creative uses of her old pieces of make up.
The idea for this project is then, that I will go through all of my old make up, including mascaras and lipsticks and post make up of the days with those, rather than my new GCC eyeshadows. I will tell you what products I used, show you photos and try to make this as clear and interesting as possible. I doubt about the interesting part, but let's see, shall we?
Aion aloittaa blogiprojektin tai ennemmin meikkiprojektin, jossa käyn läpi kaikki vanhat meikkini ja näytän uusia päivän meikkejä niiden kanssa enkä aina vain samojen GCC:n meikkejä käyttäen.
Here's all the make up you'll be seeing in my photos later, it's a lot isn't it?
Tässä näette kaikki meikkini, aika paljon eikös?
The idea for this project is then, that I will go through all of my old make up, including mascaras and lipsticks and post make up of the days with those, rather than my new GCC eyeshadows. I will tell you what products I used, show you photos and try to make this as clear and interesting as possible. I doubt about the interesting part, but let's see, shall we?
Aion aloittaa blogiprojektin tai ennemmin meikkiprojektin, jossa käyn läpi kaikki vanhat meikkini ja näytän uusia päivän meikkejä niiden kanssa enkä aina vain samojen GCC:n meikkejä käyttäen.
Here's all the make up you'll be seeing in my photos later, it's a lot isn't it?
Tässä näette kaikki meikkini, aika paljon eikös?
Make Up of the Day 22.2.2014
Geek Chic Cosmetics: Anarchist Priest and Kingslayer; Manly Palette: violet shade. Mascara: Lumene.
Berries - foodspo
In the middle of winter I wanted some berries again - don't have any so I'll stick to pictures. All photos from Tumblr.
Love me love me not
This time it's going to be really personal. For most of my life I've been single, big surprise since I'm under 30, and it's never really bothered me that much (except in my teen years, again big surprise). I've grown accustomed to being on my own, I like my own privacy and the freedom that comes from not being tied to anyone. I like the fact that I can choose home and my dad over someone I hardly know, and I don't have to explain why I'd rather be with my family than some guy who likes me.
However, my relationships have all been turbulent and very short, not only because of my up and down temper, but because I tend to attract men of the same sort. I've gotten sick and tired of this. I'd like to meet a guy who likes me for who I am and isn't as insane as I am. Someone calm who'll calm me down as well.
In short - I'd like to meet someone nice, because I'm sick and tired of being alone all the time, and I'd love to finally have a decent relationship with a decent person and feel good about myself. Feel good about them. Want my dad to meet them. Want to choose them over my dad. Want to choose love over my family. I'd like to finally really honestly fall in love and not have to repress those feelings away because of a broken relationship and a broken heart. I've been in love, but I've never been allowed to stay in love.
Actually, a correction to the about text. I wouldn't mind finding a lovely calm lady to steal my heart as well. I go both ways and love is love.
Olen ollut yksin kauan, suhteeni ovat olleet lyhyitä ja todella temperamenttisia, ja toivon kaikin sydämin, että löytäisin jonkun rauhallisen miehen, joka pitäisi minutkin rauhassa. Haluan saada olla rakastunut, kun tiedän, että joku rakastaa minua takaisin, eikä pakota pitämään tunteitani poissa, kun niille ei ole vastakaikua. Korjaus: en välitä onko rakkauteni mies vai nainen, molemmat tuovat rakkautta yhtä lailla.
However, my relationships have all been turbulent and very short, not only because of my up and down temper, but because I tend to attract men of the same sort. I've gotten sick and tired of this. I'd like to meet a guy who likes me for who I am and isn't as insane as I am. Someone calm who'll calm me down as well.
In short - I'd like to meet someone nice, because I'm sick and tired of being alone all the time, and I'd love to finally have a decent relationship with a decent person and feel good about myself. Feel good about them. Want my dad to meet them. Want to choose them over my dad. Want to choose love over my family. I'd like to finally really honestly fall in love and not have to repress those feelings away because of a broken relationship and a broken heart. I've been in love, but I've never been allowed to stay in love.
Actually, a correction to the about text. I wouldn't mind finding a lovely calm lady to steal my heart as well. I go both ways and love is love.
Olen ollut yksin kauan, suhteeni ovat olleet lyhyitä ja todella temperamenttisia, ja toivon kaikin sydämin, että löytäisin jonkun rauhallisen miehen, joka pitäisi minutkin rauhassa. Haluan saada olla rakastunut, kun tiedän, että joku rakastaa minua takaisin, eikä pakota pitämään tunteitani poissa, kun niille ei ole vastakaikua. Korjaus: en välitä onko rakkauteni mies vai nainen, molemmat tuovat rakkautta yhtä lailla.
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