Today's Thoughts and MRIs

Woke up in the morning feeling nothing like I should after a good long sleep, seeing as I woke up at five am again and couldn't sleep any longer.
Waited till 7 am to really get up, but got bored a few moments later. Finally started eating breakfast, I usually skip the whole thing and it's not a good idea. I've started eating porridge now every day to keep me going in the morning. Drank a few cups of coffee too, but that doesn't help.

Today was dad's MRI, I went with him though I'm sure he could've done it without me. It's just nicer not being all alone in a hospital I think. We still don't know what's wrong with him and I'm really scared of what might come out of all of it. I'm really nervous for him. I hope it's something treatable, something cureable.

I should start drawing again, been itching to draw for days, but just haven't found the right sort of moment to do that. I need a good place to sit and watch something, but our living room is way too cold for drawing and my bed just doesn't give the right sort of seating for my drawing. I don't know. I'm rambling now.
I'm just nervous.

I should get a call from my future therapist either today or beginning of next week. Not going to see a shrink for my therapy but some other person, someone less important than a doctor I presume. I don't really care anymore, I feel fine now since half of my stress has been controlled. I did all my school work now and should get my BA out any day now! So I'm really excited about that and not at all nervous about school anymore. The only thing to do now is to empty the flat in Tampere and give back the keys to TOAS (Tampere student housing).

I need something to do. Something that'd keep me warm. I should clean too. I should get internet in my room so I could spend more time on my laptop,  but there's no internet cable there. So I have to sit here in the entree in the cold. It's not even that cold, but I feel cold. I feel cold all the time now. I don't even know why.

I I I I all my text start with that. So bye now. Hope for the best and prepare for the worst!

Cuteness Overload: Moar Billie n' Stuff

My Tattoos - the few of them

I only have four tattoos thus far, but I was requested to do this post and I do agree, it's a good idea to write about them. Especially since I'm not even close to having all the tattoos I want to have and will get at some point.
But first the ones I do have. The first tattoo I got was when I had just about turned 19, it's a small gekko on my left foot. And no, it's not just a random gekko that everybody gets, I really do like gekkos enough to want to have one on me for the rest of my life. They're lovely little things! And yes, it did hurt to get it, but no it wasn't too bad.

The second tattoos I got were the two skulls, one has "infinity" on the banner and the other "ecc 3:1". I got them half a year after the gekko and am still absolutely in love with them. Firstly, I like skulls. Big surprise. Also, it's a small memorandum for my mother who passed away in 2008. The 3rd chapter of the book of Ecclesiastes was read in her memorial service: "A time for everything, a moment  for every activity under heaven".

The third tattoo I got last May right after I got sort of cleared of cancer, thought it was the best time for me to get them since I wasn't all too immunocompromised (I am as a fact immunocompromised all the time because I'm a transplant patient, but then it wasn't as harsh as normally). It's a filigree tattoo with a skeleton of a Goa'uld symbiote running through it. This one, as well as the other tattoos I drew myself, but this one I didn't allow to be modified at all before tattooing, so this one's all on me. And I'm a huge Stargate fan, ever since I was little, so I think it's only suitable that I have Cleo on me all the time.

The next tattoos I'm going to get are the crest of my home town Sipoo, and the symbol for JRR Tolkien. Possibly also a small text with his Elvish version of the Lord's Prayer (Átaremma i ëa pell' ëa, na aïre esselya).

If you have any questions, don't hesitate to ask! I'd love to hear thoughts about my tattoos!

OOTD 10.1.2014

Top: Osiris Clothing - Sleeping with Sirens t-shirt, Jeans: New Yorker

Make Up of the Day 10.1.2014

Eyeshadow: Geek Chic Cosmetics Lady of the Golden Wood, Eyeliner: Some cheap kohl