Bad day's thoughts

I don't know how  I manage to do this, but the simplest thing just ruins a  day and I fail to see a future for myself any longer and I feel like just passing away into oblivion. I wish I didn't have people who cared about me so I would be able to get rid of this feeling and get rid of this life. But then I realise that's a horrible thought to have and just go on like nothing happened.
But a bad day. On a bad day I can't be happy, I can't even really be sad. I just am.

Also I can't sleep anymore at all so I got some more pills to try and help with that. Yay great. More pills, just what the doctor prescribed. Literally.

Hyvä päivä, hyvä päivä, älä tule paha päivä, tule hyvä päivä, ei. Ei se niin toimi. Saan huonon päivän mitä tyhmimmistä ja pienistä syistä ja yhtäkkiä kesken päivän se muuttuu hyvästä huonoksi ja minä menetän haluni elää. En edes tiedä mikä siinä on enää, pelkään vain kuollakseni tulevaa enkä näe siinä mitään hyvää. 

Make Up Project: Make Up of the Day 24.2.2014

Products used:
Some pink glittery eyeshadow that once came with some magazine
Yves Rocher Luminelle white eyeshadow
Lumene Anytime lipgloss shade 3 Melon Pop
Lumene Natural Code Mineral Bronze&Blush shade 10 Pinky
Lumene Natural Code Mineral Powder shade 10 Vanilla

Some Interior Inspiration

All photos from Pinterest.

Some EMP shopping

I just got my package of two wonderful t-shirts from EMP. One is an Asking Alexandria t-shirt and the other is a glow in the dark Batman t-shirt. I'd love to show you how it glows in the dark, but I can't create darkness in my room since I don't have any curtains whatsoever, so it'll just have to wait - maybe one day.

Third Bleach on My Way to White Heaven

My third bleaching went well, as well as I could've hoped for, but I'm still left with some yellow-orange strands. Not nearly as many as before, so I'm happy about that. Definitely not white hair yet, but with enough silver shampoo, maybe soonish!

Because the photos don't accurately show the bleached hair, I did a small video of it too.

The Charm of Fitocracy

I've been going happily on this site for a while now, and just can't get enough, and now I'll explain why.

At this minute I'm on level 16, and am 2583 points away from level 17. Like in a game, where you get exp to level up. So I go do a workout (there's a 3 workout max per day, but no limit to how big one workout is) - this time a workout like this:

• Bent Over Barbell Row
  • 10 kg x 20 reps 29
  • 10 kg x 20 reps 29
  • 10 kg x 20 reps 29
• Dumbbell 2-Arm Triceps Extension
  • 5 kg x 20 reps 12
  • 5 kg x 20 reps 12
  • 5 kg x 20 reps 12
• Barbell Bench Press
  • 10 kg x 30 reps 59
  • 10 kg x 30 reps 59
  • 10 kg x 30 reps 59
• Reverse Crunch
  • 30 reps 50
  • 30 reps 50
  • 30 reps 50
• Dumbbell Bicep Curl
  • 5 kg x 10 reps 32
  • 5 kg x 10 reps 32
  • 5 kg x 10 reps 32
• Body Weight Squat
  • 10 reps 8
  • 10 reps 8
  • 25 reps 21 
   

And voilá, I have only 2000 points to go to level 17 and I didn't even break a sweat yet!

I usually try to get about a thousand points  per day, so that I keep up with the routine, rather than just getting to an even number, but now I'm a bit pressed for time, so a whole workout was out of the question. But a short 583 point workout went perfectly well, and I do feel it in my muscles. My arms and legs are slightly shaky...