Looks crisis

Looking at Tumblr and online shops always gives me this huge crisis over my looks. Sure I don't think I'm ugly or anything, I'm pretty cute (fat though, but still), but good Lord there are such beautiful women out there and such amazing clothes I just wish I'd fit into!

My new Converse

Yesterday my dad brought me the package from Boozt.com that was waiting for me in the post office - it had two new pairs of Converse and I am so so happy with these! They came really fast, ordering was simple and hopefully paying will be just as simple, and the size is just perfect!

I bought two pairs (I got greedy) - one pair is dark red and one has the union jack!

Got my CrazyFactory package today!

Finally I got my package, sad I can't pierce yet 'cause my left arm is immobile thanks to the IV in the bend...
But I did get all of the things and I'm so superduperhappyhappyjoyohsuchjoy! I'll get my septum and labret back, plus two new earlobe piercings, so everything I had before but better! Hopefully...I'm always a bit apprehensive about piercing the septum, since the first time I did it, it went a bit crooked. The second time was perfect, and I don't know if I can beat perfect!

But this is what I got:
- 10 single packaged sterile needles of 1.6
- 2 semi cirles of 1 cm diameter, 1.2, and 3&4 mm balls
- 2 semi cirles of 1.2 cm diameter, 1.2, and 3&4 mm balls
- 2 longer labrets, 1.2, and 4 mm balls

So hopefully I'll get something like this done:

I workout so I can keep up with the Doctor

Finally managed to take some pictures and hey here's my favourite items I shopped for these past months! Aren't they just awesome? It's so awesome going to the gym in these and flaunting your NERDINESS for everyone to see! Love 'em.

Also my email doesn't want to work right now, so if you want to know where they were from, just ask in a comment and I'll get to you as soon as I get my email working! Because the store confirmation is in my email if you're wondering.
They were $50, no shipping, and a bit over 4€ as customs taxes.

Yesterday, I bought two lipsticks from KICKS in Helsinki. One black one and one two-tone one with a side that's golden and the other silver! It's so awesome and looks so dreadful on me. I doubt I'll use them much, but it is lovely having them. They're fun. Maybe for Halloween?

Just look how horrible the gold/silver one looks! I look completely dead and the green eyeshadow isn't helping! Rather fantastic, rather disgusting.

Also that's how much my hair has grown! It's almost to my shoulders! I can't wait for it to actually grow even longer.

OOTD Summer Dress

This is the last item I bought this week, and I love it. It's just the right shade of lilac to not be too ordinary but still summery and it's really flowy too, love it.

Lace and Shorts

So this is my second outfit from yesterday's shopping spree. I really needed new shorts for my trip to Canada, and since I've definitely outgrown all my others I had to find some that fit me. And luckily I found these lovely thin and flowy shorts!

Shopping and OOTD

So I went on a bit of a shopping spree today, since I needed some Summer clothes for Canada (I've sorta outgrown my last Summer's clothes....damned fatty food) so yeah, got some new lovely items. I'm going to show them as OOTDs in the next few days, so you'll see what I got!

The trousers are from H&M and the top from GinaTricot. I love them both to death! Exactly what I was looking for. Something feminine, yet enough rock n' roll to not seem too average and a lot of lace <3 I love lace.

Stripes and Lace - H&M Haul

MUA - Make Up Academy - Package

I got this ridiculously large package from MUA, though I only ordered a few things:
- False eyelashes that probably actually make a difference to my look
- Eyeshadow primer and concealer

Today's thoughts and some music

So we went shopping again, I bought three spray paints for 10 euro, so I'm happy about that. I'm really tired too, again, big surprise, so I think I'll try and rest at some point. Have been feeling really weird lately, again sort of  depressed but I don't feel like I have a reason anymore. I should be feeling happy, I should be happy, since there's only happiness in my life right now.

I should write more essays again too, I have one essay planned and I still haven't written it. I really should write it, because it'd be really mean to my wonderful teacher if I ask him to take my essay and then I don't deliver. I so hate missing deadlines.

I've been feeling artsy too, I feel like I should be diying all the time and I have nothing to diy. I wish I had something to paint, thankfully I have some canvas, so I'll just go fetch that and start painting. Watching Stargate and painting, what a dream. Wonderful.

Here's something that's been keeping me up for the last day:

Asking Alexandria - The Death of Me

Am I insane?
I ask myself over and over and over again
Trapped in my brain
Pull it out from the cracks in my skull
Am I alone?
Surrounded by shadows
I think I might just be suffocating

The devil came to take me to hell
But I'm already there.

Am I insane?
Am I insane?
Am I insane?

The devil came to take me to hell
But I'm already there.

[Chorus]
I won't let you be the death of me
No I refuse to let you bring me down
Bring me down
I won't let you make me out to be
The one who's in the wrong
And I've lost my mind before
But now I'm back
And I'm better than ever.

Am I insane?
I've rolled myself over
And screamed till I spit up blood
Trapped in my brain
The itching is incomprehensible and it won't stop

Am I alone?
The voices who lie but they just won't fucking go away

The devil came to take me to hell
But I'm already there.

Am I insane?
Am I insane?
Am I insane?

Am I alone surrounded by death?
I think this might just be the end

Am I insane?
Am I insane?
Am I insane?

The devil came to take me to hell
But I'm already there.

You can't take this away from me
You can't relieve these demons
You can't make this OK for me
You're the one who caused these feelings

I apologize for what I'm about to do
I try to sympathize
But at the end of the day
You brought this on yourself

[Chorus]
I won't let you be the death of me
No I refuse to let you bring me down
Bring me down
I won't let you make me out to be
The one who's in the wrong
And I've lost my mind before
But now I'm back
And I'm better than ever
Now I'm back
And I'm better than ever

The tears
Have left a blur
That I can't explain
The pain
Has left a hole
In which my heart should've been

I'm blind with rage
And I can't shake this feeling
Irrational
Impetuous
Intemperate

I'm blind with rage
And I can't shake this feeling
Irrational
Impetuous
Intemperate

I won't let you be the death of me
I refuse to let you bring me down
Bring me down
I won't let you make me out to be
The one who's in the wrong
And I lost my mind before
But I'm back and I'm better than ever

February Mini Haul

Bought some new stay ups, this time all in white! And new thigh highs that you see underneath

Small goodie bag from Glamour Doll Cosmetics, review coming up!

Some EMP shopping

I just got my package of two wonderful t-shirts from EMP. One is an Asking Alexandria t-shirt and the other is a glow in the dark Batman t-shirt. I'd love to show you how it glows in the dark, but I can't create darkness in my room since I don't have any curtains whatsoever, so it'll just have to wait - maybe one day.