Looks crisis

Looking at Tumblr and online shops always gives me this huge crisis over my looks. Sure I don't think I'm ugly or anything, I'm pretty cute (fat though, but still), but good Lord there are such beautiful women out there and such amazing clothes I just wish I'd fit into!

Back from a long holiday

So this has taken me forever.
Sorry about that.
Well not really, I am sorry for being MIA but I'm not really sorry for having enjoyed my summer. So in June I was in Canada for two weeks, mostly in Toronto (just a day or so in Montreal, out of a whim really), and I had the most amazing time. Safe to say it was the best holiday I've ever had. However, more about that later on when I finally get my photos posted here too.

The summer's been unbelievably warm. Hot actually, and I think I've melted a few times, it's dreadful. I'm  really not one for warm weather, I can't do anything other than drink bottle after bottle of mineral water and it's driving my dad insane. I think I drink like seven litres a day (and to anyone who thinks it is dangerously too much - I'm still alive so booyah get over it, at least I can drink).
I can't sleep whatsoever, so basically this summer has just made my insomnia much much worse, and I can't really ask for help because my shrink is on holiday. So I have my old pills for it, but seeing as they never helped, well, tough luck I suppose.

Speaking of shrinks.  Since I went on holiday in June, I haven't taken a single anti-depressant, anti-anxiety or anti-anythingpill and I feel fabulous.
I think it's safe to say I'm no longer depressed. I am a tad worried about the start of my new school year, because if I start stressing out again, I might need to start taking pills too, but let's just wait and see, shall we?

And yes, I was accepted to Haaga-Helia to become a multilingual management assistant. So from the end of this month on, I will be studying business and languages. Hopefully by the end of the next four years (that's about as long as the studies will take), I'll be able to speak over ten languages. That's my goal anyway. I'd like to get to twenty before I die.
On the 19th I will have a Swedish test to maybe get exempt from the course, because if I have to take another Swedish course with people who can't even say their own names in Swedish I will kill someone. I use Swedish every single day, seriously need to get a free pass.
Anyway other than that I'll have to start studying Chinese, German and French, and I hope that I can choose Russian at some point.

I've also been writing quite a bit. I had about 65 pages of a book written, and I think now it's more like a hundred pages. I always write by hand on paper, so I actually don't know how many pages it really is since I've yet to copy it on the PC. But we'll see. Hopefully! Maybe one day I'll get the courage to let someone actually read it. Would anyone actually be interested?

Provocative Photoshoot with JBM

I had a lovely but sadly quite short (my fault) photoshoot with the wonderful Jari Bernhard Miettinen (JBM), I love how he's able to always capture the best side of me. And it was both with my emerald green dress and a small photoshoot with white lingerie. I love these photos, I think he did an amazing job.

Racy Photoshoot a la Timo Otamo

This is the second part of my pink photoshoot with Timo Otamo, but this time with some rather daring photos. I wasn't sure if I should post these here but I thought they came out so beautifully and it's not like it's the first or the last time I'm doing lingerie shoots, so why not?

What do you guys think? Can a fat ass like me pull of something as sexy as this? *notice sarcasm*

Hot Red Lips

I just love love love red lips, I don't care if people are for the more 'natural' look or whatever, I love my classic black eyeliner, red lips combo, I think it's something too gorgeous to pass. I love other colours too, but that's my favourite absolutely.