Back in the Hospital

So I'm back here again, I came last night around 7 pm and haven't written anything because I've been having the most horrible stomach aches ever. Thank goodness for medication for that (they don't even need to ask the doctor).

At home I first just sat down because it was so much work getting all the packages addressed to me and all the food we'd just bought to get in the house and I was exhausted. Billie was dancing around me and she was so unbelievably happy to see me. She doesn't do that big of a dance with just dad around, so I'm definitely her mommy.

After a while of just sitting there I made us lunch. Well "made" us lunch, cause I just turned the oven on and stuck in jalapenopoppers, mozzarellasticks and some weird red chilli cream cheese things which are delicious. After eating way way too much, I went upstairs to open the packages. I got two from EMP.fi and had been waiting for them for a while now. In the first one was two bedsheet things - one with comic book sound effects and one with Duff beer on it, and also the dress I'll wear on my birthday. It's so beautiful - galaxy print, heart cut back and v-cut front. I love it so much!
In the second one were shorts with these clasp things that you can attach socks to, a way too small lolita skirt and really lovely red glitter leggings. I took them here with me.

Then I just slept. Just slept. Untill it was time to leave and come back here, but it was still so worth it.

Back from a long holiday

So this has taken me forever.
Sorry about that.
Well not really, I am sorry for being MIA but I'm not really sorry for having enjoyed my summer. So in June I was in Canada for two weeks, mostly in Toronto (just a day or so in Montreal, out of a whim really), and I had the most amazing time. Safe to say it was the best holiday I've ever had. However, more about that later on when I finally get my photos posted here too.

The summer's been unbelievably warm. Hot actually, and I think I've melted a few times, it's dreadful. I'm  really not one for warm weather, I can't do anything other than drink bottle after bottle of mineral water and it's driving my dad insane. I think I drink like seven litres a day (and to anyone who thinks it is dangerously too much - I'm still alive so booyah get over it, at least I can drink).
I can't sleep whatsoever, so basically this summer has just made my insomnia much much worse, and I can't really ask for help because my shrink is on holiday. So I have my old pills for it, but seeing as they never helped, well, tough luck I suppose.

Speaking of shrinks.  Since I went on holiday in June, I haven't taken a single anti-depressant, anti-anxiety or anti-anythingpill and I feel fabulous.
I think it's safe to say I'm no longer depressed. I am a tad worried about the start of my new school year, because if I start stressing out again, I might need to start taking pills too, but let's just wait and see, shall we?

And yes, I was accepted to Haaga-Helia to become a multilingual management assistant. So from the end of this month on, I will be studying business and languages. Hopefully by the end of the next four years (that's about as long as the studies will take), I'll be able to speak over ten languages. That's my goal anyway. I'd like to get to twenty before I die.
On the 19th I will have a Swedish test to maybe get exempt from the course, because if I have to take another Swedish course with people who can't even say their own names in Swedish I will kill someone. I use Swedish every single day, seriously need to get a free pass.
Anyway other than that I'll have to start studying Chinese, German and French, and I hope that I can choose Russian at some point.

I've also been writing quite a bit. I had about 65 pages of a book written, and I think now it's more like a hundred pages. I always write by hand on paper, so I actually don't know how many pages it really is since I've yet to copy it on the PC. But we'll see. Hopefully! Maybe one day I'll get the courage to let someone actually read it. Would anyone actually be interested?

Today's Thoughts on being rude and packing

I can be a bit of a volatile person, I'm really temperamental and I tend to react to negativity in an aggressive manner. I didn't used to be this way, but years of being bullied and having to make medical professionals believe me has made me a very guarded person.

 

I don't just let things slide, I react to them. And if I have made some of you undervalued or that I've been mean to you, I'm really sorry. I don't want to hurt people but I know how to do it. And this isn't just for my readers, it's to all that have felt me be negative towards them for no reason. I have seen a reason and thus reacted accordingly, but as someone pointed out to me today is that I don't know a commenter's agenda so being rude back gives nothing. Just a bad taste in the mouth as we say here.

 

Other than that I've been packing today, got all my clothes for my trip ready and only need to make sure I have my meds and all my papers and tickets with me when I leave on Saturday.

I'll be stuck at JFK for about four hours so I'll see some US as well! I really like airports. Hate flying but not airports or airplanes. Weird huh?

 

Also I don't need to go to my entrance exams this week because I got accepted to Haaga-Helia to study Multilingual Management Assistant studies. I'm super happy even if it was my third choice!

Oh Hello Christmas Eve!

Finally it's here, the time we've all been waiting for! Cooking and cleaning and primping and getting prezzieeess! I can't wait. Oh wait...I do the cooking and the cleaning. Oh well, might as well do them for fun!

I will be doing a whole enormous amount of good food and a whole roast duck!