Not Right Up Here

Thought's of today and today in my head. It's not a pretty place anymore.
Had to call my shrink again, 'cause I'm dumb and forgot to get more meds. Thank God I have some other sedatives too or I'd have done something really stupid. I'm too rash, I jump to decisions quicker than I think things through. But my mind is still constantly churning up more horrid imagery for me.

All photos from Tumblr.

Black and White and Weird and Sad

Emilia Clarke for UK Vogue 2013 December

The Evening of Philosophers

i've noticed
noticed well
that now that i take
those happy pills
the pills that
make me do this
instead of something
worth
doing
my happy pills
they make me
do this
philosophise
over the importance of unimportance
and i wish
that my happy pills
lasted forever
for all i have left
without them
is sadness
pain
agony
crying
death
i never want to leave
the side of my happy pills
the evening of my philosophy
the evening of philosophers