Why do I always do this?

So about two months ago I dyed my hair again - bright red. It was fine for a few days, but I realised that it was way way too orange for my liking, so I bought a new dye. And it ended up a dark magenta.
Okay, I'm quite happy with the colour, it's really pretty.
However, I still have no idea why I keep dyeing my hair red when I really really want green hair again! I mean seriously need to have green hair. I think about it most days and it's really frustrating 'cause it's so unimportant and yet so constant in my mind.
Have to dye again.

Anyway, I used a few Directions colours for the red (no pics I'm afraid): vermillion and fire and a third I can't remember. For the pink one it was rose red, which isn't that pink but it ended up being really pink in my hair. I used the Directions bleaching kit for the first time and I was constantly afraid my hair would fall off but everything went perfectly fine and looked good. Took a lot less time too to bleach!

The rose red I used is a bit of a hassle though. For some reason it doesn't want to stay in my hair whatsoever, everything in our house is pink now! If I so much as brush my fingers through my hair, my hand is so pink that it stains everything I touch! It's horrible. Absolutely horrible. And this is definitely the first time something like this happens.
Although it might be because I don't wash my hair as often during autumn and winter, since it's pretty cold and it's so uncomfortable in the cold shower. And my hair doesn't bleed for like a day after I wash it, so it might be caused by oil in the scalp. I don't know. It's annoying anyhow!

Here's what I'd love to have:

Today's thoughts on sushi, fangirling and diet

I had a wonderful day today.
Seriously.
I skipped my class to listen to a panel discussion about religion. Which ended up being one of the most boring panel discussions I have ever heard. It also brought a lot of thoughts to my mind about last night but yeah it was dull so we skipped the rest of the panel and went to eat SUSHI.
I.love.sushi.

It was fantastic. It also ruined my day's dieting which brings me to the next point of the day:
1. When I diet, I notice feeling slightly light-headed. Good since I used to eat way too much and now it's normal
2. When I get light-headed - I start fangirling. No seriously, I become a little teenager going "OMIGODHE'SSOHOT" while scrolling through Tumblr. It's kinda worrying since ordinarily I'm not like, I'm not a huuuuge fan of anything, and I feel a bit too old to be going this crazy about a person I'll probably never meet. Though good God do I want to meet them!

Wanna know who's on my list of 'letsgetcrazyexcitedaboutasinger'?
No?
Well I'll show you anyways.

I.am.ridiculous.

Alright and end this weird rant there's two songs:
One from fangirlinducingguy #1 Machine Gun Kelly (song's a cover version with Kellin Quinn: Swing Life Away)
And one from fangirlinducingguy #2 Oliver Sykes, singer of Bring Me the Horizon (song's Deathbeds)

Tomorrow I'll have some actual photos for you! Oh stuff and me! Oh yay finally I'm photographing something again jeez it's been so long.

Day One of Making Sh*t Happen

Alright.

Now.

I

have

had

enough.

For the past year I've been doing really really badly, I've been depressed and panicky and anxious and gaining massive amounts of weight, wanting to die and just plain giving up. Not anymore, just no, it's no use anyway. I won't kill myself. So I should really make this life something nice enough to enjoy so I won't feel bad all the time, right?

Finally, now I started school again, I've been going to the gym. Well not for the past week, I had guests and seriously no time, but I did walk a lot. Next week again, I promise. It's a lot of fun, I've always liked going to the gym. Let's face it, it's nice to feel sore muscles. The sweating not so much, but I like being sore.

On Friday I finally started eating healthy, I threw all the crap into a box and I'm not gonna touch it. It's mostly chocolates so they'll keep well anyway, I don't need to worry about stuff getting bad. So now I have plenty of really healthy stuff, and I've been keeping a book again because even though it's all obsessive, it's the only way I can keep myself from overeating. And I mean way overeating, like thousands of calories overeating. Not like 20. I don't care about 20. I care about the tub of ice cream I could eat. So, I keep track of everything I eat, so I know it's been nutrious and healthy, and still filling enough to keep me full without having loads of empty calories. And I feel really motivated, so I know this'll hold. Once I get to this feeling, I know it won't go away for quite some time.
I also bought a beautiful skirt from a friend, and it's like 6 sizes too small so yeah, weight loss needed! (Oh and I am way over weight. Not just a bit, but a serious amount that's really really not healthy).

Also, I've been doing really badly with school lately, it's just been way too much and I've had no energy whatsoever. To be honest, I'm not awake until I've slept 9 hours. Right now, I get to sleep about three to five hours every night. I honestly thank God when I can sleep till 7 am. Not kidding. One hour more and it's like heaven.
But hopefully with eating better and exercising, I might actually get some much needed energy, so I won't get sick all the time. And since I obviously suck in Russian, I really need to do my homework. Otherwise I will not get a good grade and I very much need a good grade from languages, 'cause I'm so scared of all these business classes which are all new information to me. Never had to think about market segmentation before.

Oh and just because I'm all motivated and happy and stuff, does not mean I don't fall into despair every now and again. *cough*everynight*cough*
But. I will Homer worry about that.

Finally some Canada!

Alright, I am so sorry this has taken so horribly long, but here it is, some of my photo memories from my time in Toronto. I was in Canada during June (Toronto for nearly two weeks, and a small weird pit stop kinda thing in Montreal).

I had an amazing time. My hostel was beautiful and so much fun, the people were so friendly, I made friends who I can't wait to see again. I spent most of my time hanging out in tourist spots and at the hostel, but I went partying almost every night and met the loveliest people - I fell in love. I absolutely fell in love and if I can, I'll move there for my exchange and work placement. Toronto was fantastic!
Montreal, not so much. Not even close.

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