30 Day Photo Challenge: Day 15 - Silhouette

This was really a difficult thing to get done, but I managed something in that direction...

However, since Google has this ridiculous idea about correcting all of my photos, I can't show it to you, because it refuses to let the lighting be as is and tries to make it in to a basic side portrait. I hate Google+

Good Night Everybody

En voinut ladata siluettikuvaani koska Google+ on ämmä, joka korjaa jotain mitä ei haluta korjattavan. Vatun haahka. Öitä.

Lately I've noticed I have no appetit

Lately I've noticed
that each time I think
of food it comes to mind
that I am not hungry


But I am
I am hungry
feel it now
my stomach
noises and aches


But I refuse
to eat
for I notice no need
for food

I know I am wrong
need to eat
but I don't feel like it
I don't want to eat
but I do get  hungry
I just have no appetite


It's been lost
in the jungle of pills
I'm taking for this awful feeling
inside of me
that's trying to take over
and control me


The pills refuse
to let me eat
they make me sleep
and not eat
though hungry and in need


FSB



Deuteronomy 28:26 

Your carcasses will be food for all the birds and the wild animals, and there will be no one to frighten them away.

Day V: Bad news

I am not lymphomafree as I previously thought. My temperature is being kept down solely by paracetamol. My lymphnodes are still enlarged. I can't eat properly, everything hurts.
I may have more lymphoma. I scared and I get massive panic attacks.

I hate my life right now.