11.2.14

Hospitals again and today's thoughts

I'm stuck in hospital. Again. And for the same reason. The lymph nodes under my jaw line have gotten enlarged due to some odd reason nobody knows of. Doctors are quite certain its virus based, so no antibiotics needed (though I'll explain later why I will need them) which also means there's no real treatment whatever it is. I'm getting Tamiflu - you know the stuff they use against influenza. It might and I hope it will have an effect and help me get rid of this at least for now, because I can't really eat or drink without strong painkillers (getting Tramal this time together with the basic paracetamol).


I also might have a urinary tract infection which is why, like I said, will need antibiotics at some point. I hope they'll give me some soon 'cause this is unbelieveably uncomfortable. Thankfully I have my laptop here so  I can bitch about all of this to you people out there reading my blog. Wohoo, I feel so lucky.
No but seriously, I feel lucky to have you guys, you mean the world to me, and I hope my urine doesn't scare you guys away, 'cause I need you in my life. 'kay? xoxo


I have my laptop, which gives me great pleasure here in the large three person room alone, while I sit by the window on my bed and wonder if I'll get out in a week or three this time round. Maybe I'll get a free pass for the rest of the year again. Positive thinking eh?
No but I'm scared. I'm seriously scared of this entire ordeal, because in the shortest time I've had the same problem and the same exact pain for the second time, and I just can't live like this. How can I go to school or work when every two months I have to stay in hospital for goodness knows how long?


I'm really glad I have my sedatives and all, since I'd be screwed without them, I wouldn't know what on earth to do or to think in this situation. They calm me a bit so I don't feel as distressed  as I would otherwise, because I really am scared of how my life will go with all these problems I have. I don't want to be a drop out just because I'm sick often! I want to be a normal person... 



I wonder what life would be like if I didn't have all this to worry about, if all my life just went around the normal day to day routines of getting up, working, going to sleep and that over and over again, without midnight phone calls to psychiatric wards or sudden moves towards the emergency room because I can't eat or drink anymore, I wonder. I wonder what my life would  be like and what kind of a person I'd be. Would I still listen to J-Rock, would I wear a Sleeping with Sirens t-shirt, would I have green hair?
Would I still have tattoos and long for a kitten?


6 comments:

  1. Nyyh :( Tässä vähän voimia: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lzd1ZSuPp1s

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  2. Adenovirus aiheuttaa kurkkukipua, kaulan imusolmukkeiden suurenemista ja virtsatieoireita. Sitä on nyt liikenteessä. Antibiootti olisi todennäköisesti turha. Tamiflu tuskin auttaa yhtään. Tauti on kova, mutta paranee itsestään.

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    1. Kiitoksia! Tämä varmaan sitten minulla onkin, kuulostaa ihan oireiltani. Oliko syksylläkin liikkeellä kyseinen viruskanta?

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    2. Oli sitä syksylläkin liikkeellä. Siitä on kuitenkin useita eri kantoja ja kaikki eivät aiheuta esim. virtsatieoireita.

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    3. No hitsi vie, voihan se sitä sitten olla. Sääli sinänsä kun adenoviruksiin ei mitään hoitoa ole. Mutta kylläkin pakko sanoa, että olo on hurjasti helpottunut ihan jo kipulääkkeiden ansiosta, eli tässä nyt vain ratsastetaan tämä loppuun!

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