30 Day Challenge - Future, first love and music!

So today I'm writing 3 days worth of answers, since I just feel like doing that, and I don't have much to say about any of the three questions.

Day 9 - How you hope your future will be like
I think I already kind of answered this question earlier, right? But hey, I want it to be to happy, filled with family and friends and I hope I'll be healthy Of course I also hope I'll own a nice house with loads of land surrounding it and have enough money to support all of that plus have extra to buy nice stuff.

Day 10 - Discuss your first love and first kiss
Well, I was 15 years old and so was he, it was really intense, we talked to each other non-stop all day long. We texted during school and then chatted online when we were home and then called each other every night: we were both under blankets so no one would hear we were talking to each other..And a 300 euro phone bill kinda proves how intense it was....I really loved him and I miss him every single day. I wish things hadn't ended the way they did, but at the same time I know it was his only way out.
My first kiss, however, was nothing special, I can't even remember who it was since it was in kindergarten.

Day 11 - Put your iPod on shuffle and write ten songs that pop up
My iPod has been offline for so long that the battery is dead, so I can't really do that, but I'll write just FIVE  random songs here:
Rammstein - Los
Abney Park - Katyusha
Mozart - Eine kleine Nachtmusik
X Japan - Kurenai
Bring Me the Horizon - deathbeds

Today's thoughts on sushi, fangirling and diet

I had a wonderful day today.
Seriously.
I skipped my class to listen to a panel discussion about religion. Which ended up being one of the most boring panel discussions I have ever heard. It also brought a lot of thoughts to my mind about last night but yeah it was dull so we skipped the rest of the panel and went to eat SUSHI.
I.love.sushi.

It was fantastic. It also ruined my day's dieting which brings me to the next point of the day:
1. When I diet, I notice feeling slightly light-headed. Good since I used to eat way too much and now it's normal
2. When I get light-headed - I start fangirling. No seriously, I become a little teenager going "OMIGODHE'SSOHOT" while scrolling through Tumblr. It's kinda worrying since ordinarily I'm not like, I'm not a huuuuge fan of anything, and I feel a bit too old to be going this crazy about a person I'll probably never meet. Though good God do I want to meet them!

Wanna know who's on my list of 'letsgetcrazyexcitedaboutasinger'?
No?
Well I'll show you anyways.

I.am.ridiculous.

Alright and end this weird rant there's two songs:
One from fangirlinducingguy #1 Machine Gun Kelly (song's a cover version with Kellin Quinn: Swing Life Away)
And one from fangirlinducingguy #2 Oliver Sykes, singer of Bring Me the Horizon (song's Deathbeds)

Tomorrow I'll have some actual photos for you! Oh stuff and me! Oh yay finally I'm photographing something again jeez it's been so long.

So it's Eurovision night

Tonight's the final of this year's Eurovision Song Contest and I'm off the hook excited. I know it might sound silly and I know how many people hate the show, not to mention the music, but for me this is the funnest night of this time of the year and this time  of the year has some pretty darn fun nights!

If I was with just friends, I'd get loaded with the (un)official Eurovision drinking game, but I'm at home with dad and the little bear so I'm just gonna stay awake and dance like an idiot to some very bad songs. This it seems a few of them got through to the finals (bad taste in the audience!)

But for now I'll just give you a small five song list of my absolute favourite Eurovision songs over the years.

1. My forever favourite Teapacks - Push the button (Israel)

2. Because I was a huge Verka fan even before his Eurovision appearance Verka Serduchka - Dancing Lasha Tumbai (Ukraine)

3. Okay I have a thing for Abba....Abba - Waterloo (Sweden)

4. Just because Giorgos Alkaios & Friends - OPA! (Greece)

5. I know it's an annoying earworm but still Lena - Satellite (Germany)

And still....you turn me on

Do you want to be an angel,
Do you wanna be an angel
Do you wanna be a star
Do you wanna play some magic
On my guitar
Do you wanna be a poet
Do you wanna be my string
You could be anything

Do you wanna be the lover of another undercover
You could even be the
Man on the moon

Do you wanna be the player
Do you wanna be the string
Let me tell you something
It just don't mean a thing

You see it really doesn't matter
When you're buried in disguise
By the dark glass on your eyes
Though your flesh has crystallised
Still...you turn me on

Do you wanna be the pillow
Where I lay my head
Do you wanna be the feathers
Lying on my bed
Do you wanna be the cover
Of a magazine
Create a scene

Every day a little sadder
A little madder
Someone get me a ladder

Do you wanna be the singer
Do you wanna be the song
Let me tell you something
You just couldn't be more wrong

You see I really have to tell you
That it all gets so intense
From my experience
It just doesn't seem to make sense
Still...you turn me on

Devil's Night

I am an enemy of everything
My life is not for sale
My heart is in this fight forever
What can you take from me?
When there’s not a single fucking day
I haven’t fought to stay alive?
We’re finding hope in the hopeless
I am still their voice that gets stuck in your head
I am me
And I have come to fucking scare you to death
Because that’s what you deserve you disgusting piece of shit

I know the only words that you have for me
Are give up and get out
You'd like to think that we've been beaten
But we're here to stay
Forever and always

Every single day
Not giving up, living up all my dreams
So go ahead and look like I’m inferior
Condescension, Suffering, Callousness and Loathing
Are the badges I have earned for my cause
And I am finding hope within hatred
A reason to persist, to push past everything
We are here
And we have come to scare you to death
Because that’s what you deserve
You fucking fake ass hypocrites

I know the only words that you have for me
Are give up and get out
You'd like to think that we've been beaten
But we're here to stay
Forever and always

So loud
We are the ones that you pushed away
For drowning your voice out
You’d like to think
We've been defeated, but we’re here to stay
Forever and always

We've been through everything
And we all have our scars
We may be broken but you
CAN’T KILL ALL OF US
GOOOOOOOO!!!

Think before you fucking speak

I am no villain, think before you fucking speak
People fear what they don’t understand
And so now beauty has become the fucking beast

(Maybe you didn't hear me?)

I SAID GO FUCK YOURSELF!!!

I know the only words that you have for me
Are give up and get out
You’d like to think
That we've been beaten but we’re here to stay
Forever and always

So Loud
We are the ones that you pushed away
For drowning your voice out
You’d like to think
We've been defeated, but we’re here to stay
Forever and always 

Motionless in White - Devil's Night

I want it painted black

I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes

I see a line of cars and they're all painted black
With flowers and my love, both never to come back
I see people turn their heads and quickly look away
Like a newborn baby it just happens ev'ryday

I look inside myself and see my heart is black
I see my red door and it has been painted black
Maybe then I'll fade away and not have to face the facts
It's not easy facing up when your whole world is black

No more will my green sea go turn a deeper blue
I could not forsee this thing happening to you
If I look hard enough into the setting sun
My love will laugh with me before the morning comes

I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes

Hmm, hmm, hmm...

I wanna see it painted black, painted black
Black as night, black as coal
I wanna see the sun, blotted out from the sky
I wanna see it painted, painted, painted, painted black
Yeah

Hmm, hmm, hmm...

Rolling Stones - Paint it Black

Today's thoughts and partying

So today I spent with shoveling snow and doing other workouts for my Fitocracy account (I'm Frankie Savage there as well if you wanna find me) and going to the 3rd Anniversary Infektio Club event. It's a aggrotech sort of event, I don't actually exactly know what's going to be played since I want it to be a surprise, but it is cyber goth-y anyways.

From Infektio clubs Facebook site

I'm so looking forward to this, although I'm crap at being in bars alone and I'm terrified of dancing without being a. alone or b. very drunk. But I'm going to try and make the most of it, at least I'll try and get a few photos out of the event and I can't wait to wear my outfit. I chose my faux leather highwaist trousers, my DIY biohazard top and a lace cardigan. Oh I love clubbing! So excited!

I'm also going to have another photoshoot next week on Wednesday. This one is during the day, so we'll be working with natural sunlight! I just can't wait!
I'm also seeing my therapist on Monday again, and the week after that we'll have a session with both me and my dad, which is really good, because we are dealing with similar issues when it comes to mental health, and it's really good if both our problems get solved together rather than separately!


What do you think about partying/clubbing? Do you like to go out and dance? What kind of music do  you prefer in clubs?

My Favourite Workout Songs

Rave Rave Rave

When it's time, I love to party.
When it's time, I love to mosh.
When it's time, I love to headbang.
When it's time, I love to scream out your lyrics, your names, your thoughts, just scream.
When it's time, I love to be tranced by your imagination.
When it's time, I am in a trance by you and your love.
When it's time, I need that all.
When it's time, I rave.



All photos from Tumblr as usual.

30 Day Challenges!

We are the fallen angels

Spent my day in hospital again, got horrid stomach cramps and couldn't stand it, so I called an ambulance and off we went. Nothing terrible, but the pain was just too much to bare. Oh well, hopefully doesn't come back. Also my CRP was over 20 again.

I'm writing again today, finally got some inspiration to go on with! I usually find some music to inspire my writing, so here comes a small list of what I've been listening to now that I'm writing my novel longer and longer.

Falling in Reverse

Theme Day: My favourite Disney songs ( English and German)

Aristocats - Everybody Wants to be a Cat (German)

Junglebook - The Bare Necessities

Junglebook - I want to be like you (German)

Aristocats - Thomas O'Malley (German)

Lion King - I just can't wait to be King

Robin Hood - Prince John (German)

Motionless In White

Twentysecond Day of Christmas: DIY Christmas Song Coasters

Again, I'm afraid, no tutorial for this one, but it's an easy one, if you have any crafting skills. Just get some old song texts, or why not write your own, and glue them on to an already existing coaster you don't like, or preferrably, get something that could be used as a coaster and glue them on that. I suggest using a decoupage glue for the top layer, you know, just in case...

Rave Like There's No Tomorrow

Cleaning out my closet

Not really. Just my entire room. And my dad's room, since a lot of my stuff was still in there after we switched bedrooms. A lot of his stuff was in my room as well, so we took the entire evening into cleaning out both our closets, and trying to make the most of it even though my dad's neck is a pain in the neck (ha ha) and I'm sick with just  common cold now on top of everything bloody else.

Anyway, I'm slightly starting to feel like my own room is my room really, and not just my parent's old bedroom. It's really coming to me now, and it feels really good.
I burnt a scented candle and some aromatic oils in there as well, and it smells so good. It's like an orangerie in there now, such a beautiful mixture of bergamot, rose and orchids, and I've put up some paintings and photos up on the walls and feel much more comfy in there now.

Oh and I found some really old photos and frames of my dad as a baby and my Swiss gran, and it's awesome, I get to keep all of them and put them on my walls! I'm so happy right now.

I also have a double mattress, as in two singles on top of each other, feels really weird 'cause the one on top is bigger than the one below!
But it's okay, 'cause tomorrow I should get my new bed, and then I can put both of them on there, the smaller one on top.

Mail came today for me, a few packages from the UK, one from Forever 21 with two shorts in it, and one from Osiris with loads of stuff in it, going to show you later both of them, but not today, not today. Also got a package from the US with Pusheen stuff in it, the cute lil' t-shirt with 'classy English gentelman Pusheen' on it and a little notepad, all from Hey Chickadee.

Now I'm going to go clean again, which is really weird, 'cause I hate cleaning...

Thankfully there's some inspiration on Youtube:

tonight's music, the mind can change

Falling in Reverse - The Drug in me is You

Falling in Reverse - I'm not a Vampire

Black Veil Brides - Perfect Weapon

Black Veil Brides - "Knives and Pens"

Top five songs of week 47

Pierce the Veil - King for a Day ft Kellin Quinn

Black Veil Brides - I am Bulletproof

All Time Low - Time-Bomb

Aristocats - Thomas O'Malley (german)

Mathieu Chedid et Sean Lennon - L'Eclipse