Christmas and Birthday Coming Up

I know I haven't written in a while, it's due to feeling extremely badly - first with stomach aches and now with a pounding head ache.

However, tomorrow they should do the biopsy and hopefully I'll get to spend next weekend with friends at home cause it's my birthday on Sunday! My doctors promised they'd do everything to get me to go home that weekend.

I can't wait for Christmas even though I may have to spend it here. Unlikely but still. I'd love to go home and eat duck with my dad! Not getting any presents yet, since my only Christmas present will be a PS4 and we'll go buy that together after the holiday craze is over.

I know it's still November.......but Christmas!

I love Christmas so much, I start gathering up presents for people very soon after stores have stockpiled on their Christmas-y junk. Then it's easy to find wrapping paper and stuff ike that. This year I'm way behind schedule, big surprise since I'm in hospital.
This year I'm also going to buy some new ornaments, something really pretty. Or and beautiful garlands. And lights! I want to put lots of Christmas lights in my room for some winter ambiance,

Here's some inspiration:

Giving up and not

I am giving up writing and publishing my food diaries, mostly because I've come to a point in my life that I feel I don't really need to post those, or so many posts a day as usual for me. This blog has some unbelievable therapeutic qualities for me, so I am not giving up on this (or on my diet), but I will try and keep it to a bare minimum.

My life is not suddenly better, but I do feel a weight slowly being lifted off my shoulders as each day passes, because each day I manage to get closer to my goals. It feels comforting. Also I think my meds are working better slowly, but I will have to discuss things with my shrink still.

Tomorrow I will go to the pharmacy again and get some more pills, on Saturday I will go clean out my flat in Tampere a bit more, on Sunday it's time for some shopping with my bf, and on Monday it's a nice little second Sunday. Three Kings, can't wait!

Three Holy Kings by Piotr Stachiewicz, for the Three Kings' Day on 6th January

Now that the party is over...

...I don't really know what to do with myself. My throat hurts again, the lymph node is huge, and I can't do anything about it for more than three days. So yay.
I really don't feel festive, just tired now. Everything's done and nothing more to be done, and I'm supposed to give up sitting here and go lie down with my bf/ex, but I feel like being on the internet. I know he'd take it the wrong way, and I don't want to scare him off everytime he visits. I like it when he visits, he's the perfect gentleman and absolutely quiet most of the time. It's a pleasure just sitting near him not having to say a word, since he's a quiet sort of guy.

Anyway, I should go read a book with  him or something, so. Here's some snowflakes for y'all.

Our Christmas Eve in Photos

Twentyfourth Day of Christmas: For Christmas Eve

Random photos of Christmas tree ornaments, hope they inspire you to feel happy today!