Selfiemania: My normal day at hospital and my hair crisis

I'll start with my hair crisis. Well it's not exactly a crisis, it's just something that's been annoying me for a while now. I was able to cut my fringe here with some really crappy scissors and it turned out just about okay, it does not look good, but at least it's not hideous.
But I would so so so like to dye my hair green-blue, sort of mermaidlike hair, but I can't since I'm in a hospital and just can't do stuff like that. I'd have to bleach first and then use three different hair dyes to get what I want, and it would be such a mess that I think they'd charge me something for the cleaning.
And I am so not doing that.

But to my normal day at hospital:
I wake up around half past six, go and have a smoke.
Then I get some tea (I've refused breakfast 'cause I'm just not hungry that early).
Wait a while for something to happen, have another smoke, see my doctor at around 10:30.
 After that it's most like visitor's time. If no one is coming, I go for a relatively long walk around the hospital, upstairs and then cantine, smoke, downstairs, smoke, back to the ward.
Then it's already lunch time. That's when I actually do eat.
I get all kinds of meds through out the day, including heparin shots to my stomach (which is full of quite beautiful bruises at the moment).
I go for another walk, smoke, take some pain meds because of all the walking around and maybe have a nap.
Usually write some blog post in between some boring activity.
At three or four my dad comes, we go to the cantine, then I get my supper, and around sixish my dad leaves again. I always miss him when he leaves, but he has to go take care of Billie. I wish I could just have Billie here with me all the time.
Then I just wait around for the evening snack which for me is tea, ice cubes and some cheese. I love cheese.
I get my evening meds, and some sedatives, and wait for the ten o'clock when I get my last heparin shot and my sleeping pill. Oh and I do go have a smoke right before nine when the doors to the ward close.
I'm a real chimney here, but it calms me down, so no one has complained about it yet. I will stop smoking at some point, but definitely not now.

Many shades of green

I really want my green hair back, bbut I was thinking some ombre or other effect with bright greens and dark greens. Any tips how I could get that done?





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Hair Inspiration

Oh if I only had long hair!

Why do I always do this?

So about two months ago I dyed my hair again - bright red. It was fine for a few days, but I realised that it was way way too orange for my liking, so I bought a new dye. And it ended up a dark magenta.
Okay, I'm quite happy with the colour, it's really pretty.
However, I still have no idea why I keep dyeing my hair red when I really really want green hair again! I mean seriously need to have green hair. I think about it most days and it's really frustrating 'cause it's so unimportant and yet so constant in my mind.
Have to dye again.

Anyway, I used a few Directions colours for the red (no pics I'm afraid): vermillion and fire and a third I can't remember. For the pink one it was rose red, which isn't that pink but it ended up being really pink in my hair. I used the Directions bleaching kit for the first time and I was constantly afraid my hair would fall off but everything went perfectly fine and looked good. Took a lot less time too to bleach!

The rose red I used is a bit of a hassle though. For some reason it doesn't want to stay in my hair whatsoever, everything in our house is pink now! If I so much as brush my fingers through my hair, my hand is so pink that it stains everything I touch! It's horrible. Absolutely horrible. And this is definitely the first time something like this happens.
Although it might be because I don't wash my hair as often during autumn and winter, since it's pretty cold and it's so uncomfortable in the cold shower. And my hair doesn't bleed for like a day after I wash it, so it might be caused by oil in the scalp. I don't know. It's annoying anyhow!

Here's what I'd love to have:

Minty Green

I've had this terrible urge these last couple of days to dye my hair mint green. And I don't even have money. So probably not going to happen for a while, but here's some lovely mint green heads:

So, pink hair now

I ended up dyeing my hair yesterday and though the dye was a mix of Directions' Atlantic Blue and Rose Red, it ended up more pink than violet. I diluted the dye with some conditioner (or more like a lot of it) so it's a lot less intense than it would've been.
I still have some dye left, but I think I'll keep that till after my entrance exams - I have some in late April so I have to dye to blonde again at that point. Don't dare go to interviews with pink hair...
What do you guys think? Does it look good? How about what do you guys think about going to job interviews or school interviews with crazy hair? Would you do it or would you dilute your craziness to a "normal" level?
How about piercings? My stretches are up to an 8 mm, and going to 10 next week, I'm going to be wearing basic plugs and some ordinary hoops for the interviews, but what would you do?

Today's thoughts on piercings and failure

I know the title seems a bit harsh and really depressed again, but I'm feeling relatively good right now. I feel like I have something to look forward to and it's keeping me happy and satisfied without having to resort to sedatives or sleeping.

But I do keep failing at basically everything. I can't take good photos anymore, I can't draw anymore, I've never been able to sing, I'm failing in my diet (just had bacon) and thus failing at weight loss and creating actual weight gain, without getting more muscles, and my dad seems so disappointed in me every day. Probably because of the piercings but still. Oh and I fail at hair dye, my head just doesn't want to get really platinum blonde. But I will keep trying.

About piercings, I bought a couple of barbells and a ring so I'll be piercing a bit more of myself in the coming weeks. Not anything harsh, just another earring, nothing big or fancy. I'm terrified of piercing my own septum so I  will definitely NOT be doing that, but will keep to non-cartilidge areas of my body.

Oh and I've managed to have some non-failing progress on my stretching! I've stretched my right earlobe to 4 mm and the left one to 3 mm. Hoping that in a week or so, I can have the left one at 4 mm too, so that I'll be able to stretch them simultaneously rather than one after the other.

My hair dyeing process is keeping me busy too, tomorrow I'll be bleaching it again and see what happens. Probably almost nothing if memory serves right. I tend to not go whiter than piss. Serves me for having the ginger gene I suppose.

I'm also happy about the make up project, because it gives me a reason to take pictures every day and not slack like  with the photography challenge. Which btw will continue today. I hate abbreviations. And I still use them.

First Bleach on My Way to White Heaven

With a New Haircut - Maybe New Hair Dye? White Hair Inspo

This is a bit of inspiration for getting platinum blonde hair. I've never had my hair that blonde, but I want to try it out! I'm getting tired of the green, though it's pretty, but I want something new again, so I've bought all the dyes and bleaches and hope to achieve something along the line of these that I found on Tumblr.
All photos from Tumblr.

Haluaisin värjätä hiukseni näin valkoisiksi ja ehkä sen teenkin tässä piakkoin. Kaikki kuvat Tumblrista.