We're all mad here and troubled with men

Excuse me for the slightly misdirecting title, it's just for obvious advertising purposes. I am not exactly troubled with or by men, but one man in particular and that's my boyfriend. I love him, can't live without him, and I know the same is true for him, but we just can't live with each other.
We haven't moved in with each other or anything, just visiting is too strainful for us. Last time it was the long hours he spent at work that drove me nearly insane, but now it's my medicine that makes me so sleepy that I take like 6 hours' naps every day and am usually sort of falling asleep that are making him behave as though I've really insulted him somehow.

He promised he'd stay for Christmas, and if he'd leave tomorrow morning, that he'd be back for Christmas, but if he goes....I actually doubt he'll come for Christmas.
I've tried suggesting things to do tomorrow, because I know the anger comes from boredom, but he's refusing all those too, so I know he's going to go home tomorrow. And I know he isn't coming back.

So that's probably it again for our relationship, we love each other but we just can't stand being around each other enough that it'd make a difference if we were in a relationship or not. It's not like there's any....you know what I mean.

Some persian art and today's life

We went to Porvoo with my dad today. Our car needed to be checked that it's good for Finnish roads again, it had to be strip searched basically. And I drove both ways, there and back again. It was both amazing and horrible, and I can tell you, I cannot do two things at the same time in the car. Impossible. If I look one way, I immediately turn the car the other way, which is really dangerous and I  should seriously learn out of it. I also take really quick turns, I'm just a bit jerky in every possible way when it comes to driving.

I'm now waiting for my boyfriend to come. I have some things planned for him, so I just can't wait.

Now here's for some persian art:

Tomorrow I'll see my boyfriend again

I really can't wait anymore. We live a few hundred kilometres away from each other, and since I don't own a car or have any money really, it's quite a hassle for me to get there. And now that he's gotten comfortable with my dad (he was a tad nervous in the beginning to say the least) he's looking forward to coming to us. And I can't wait. I'm going to put completely new linen for a double bed in the guest room, so we won't bother my dad if we have to go downstairs every once in a while. Oh the linen are beautiful, they're white with this beautiful slightly golden damasque print.

He's also  going to spend Christmas with us, so he'll hopefully stay the whole week now that he gets here. I'm a tad worried he'll find himself anxious to get away,  mostly due to his lack of social lust, but  I'm sure, I'm absolutely sure, we can work it out somehow.
He's also promised to cut up some wood, so my dad doesn't have to, and help me with shoveling snow if it suddenly starts snowing like mad.

We're also going to go see his mom and her new husband, they're absolutely wonderful people and I can't wait to give her the Christmas present I've prepared. I'm sure she'll love it, there's no way she'll hate it. And I get to see my boyfriend's niece! She's really tiny, just half a year old. I just cannot wait.
We're going to see my boyfriend's dad too maybe, if he's around. I've never met him yet and I'm sort of nervous, but mostly just curious of what he looks like and is he so much like my boyfriend as everyone keeps telling me. I may also see his new wife, but I don't know yet at all...

 

I'll get to show him my gran too, 'cause he'll stay for Christmas dinner and my mom's mom always comes to eat to us on Christmas eve. We've got a duck prepared for that, I'll get to oven roast a whole duck again, I love that! I love duck. I'm a bit nervous about my gran, 'cause she can be a really annoying person sometimes, and I'm hoping she won't tell her (extremely untrue) heroic tales of her life... 

Relationship status changed.

I've been single for a while now, but honestly, I don't mind being single usually.
Now I'm not single anymore, and it's weird, since I'm really really happy, and I know my guy loves me so much. I can see it from him, it's so calming to know that I don't need to stress about our relationship, that it'll hold no matter what.
Although, I do have to say, we did date once before, a year ago, and I ended it after about a month. But I've since realised that I just can't live without him, and living with him as just a friend is impossible. He is my love, my boyfriend and I am his love and girlfriend. It's just not possible any other way.

So yeah, I'm officially in love and dating!

We actually met because of Oscar Wilde!