Today's thoughts on studying and degrees

No, I don't mean centigrade, and though it is warm outside and beautifully sunny, no again, not temperature. I mean my  BA degree, which I finally finally got in the mail today! I wrote my thesis last year but since I spent so much time in the hospital, I couldn't finish my degree before this year since I didn't have enough credit (ECTS).

I managed to actually receive good grades even though I spent so much time outside of university and thank goodness for this, because I finally feel like I've managed to accomplish something in my life! No, I don't feel bad about my life anymore, not generally anyhow, but I haven't done much in my life - which is a fact - so this does make me happier than most things. It also means that if I don't get into another school I will have just two years till my MA degree! We'll see what happens.

 

I wrote my thesis on medicine in literature and that is probably the line I will continue on - I really like writing about medicine and I especially like medical history which is incredibly easy to link to literature and literary history. Anyways, so that's my thing and that's what got me to this point. I think I would've been bored to death long ago if I wasn't allowed to write about medicine...

Oh and I had another photoshoot yesterday - pictures up next week I assume!

 What have you guys studied or what would you like to study? Anything specific or are you still wondering about it?

All photos from Tumblr.

Today's thoughts on going AWOL,winter and getting new stuff

So the last few weeks have been surprisingly warm except for now, it's been sunny out and really felt like Spring, not like most years at this time, so I spent most of my days away from the computer. I needed some personal time to get adjusted to my new routines. I have a work place now, I go to work around three times a week and do some nice old telemarketing (yeah I'm one of those annoying bitches who calls you whenever you least want it), and it's evening work, so I've been kinda exhausted afterwards.

I've still been sleeping pretty badly lately, no idea why, but I do sleep longer now, which I suppose is good for my body and my mind, but  I wish I didn't have nightmares every night. Last night  I had a nightmare that made me wake up every hour but it still ended up being the same nightmare through out the whole night! So I just woke up, fell asleep and saw the same horrid events just continued. It wasn't very relaxing and I ended up hoping I'd just wake up completely so I wouldn't have to see that anymore.

So yes, I've sort of been busy the last few weeks and have thus not updated my blog, although I have to say some of it is due to my therapy. I started this blog out of therapeutic reasons and it has helped me get through the worst, but now I am through the worst and am seeing my therapist less frequently, I feel happy most of the time, I don't feel like the world's about to collapse around me, I even look forward to seeing what my life will become, and all of those together have made me think maybe, just maybe I should spend less time with my blog, so I would see how that affects my mood. Thus far it's been going great, and I feel quite happy with my life. I am still eating antidepressants which of course may be the reason why I feel as happy as I do, but we won't know that for quite some time to come.

I still have one essay to finish, but I spent the end of last week in Tampere getting my BA, which I should get in the mail in a matter of two or three weeks, yay! Finally, didn't take me a year to finish after I had actually written my BA thesis - oh well, better late than never, I say!
And as you can see, I got a new wig in the mail, ordered it from Ebay and managed to get three exact same wigs for the price of one. I have no idea why, still wondering what to do with the rest. So have a great week and I'll try and get back to some posting rhythm!

Day V: Comments and studying

I changed the comments for this blog for what in my case is better - no more Google+ comments, but ordinary blogger ones. Nothing censored and anyone can comment (anynonymously as well).
I will disregard comments which are purposfully mean but have no real constructive criticism in them. Trolling is allowed, but will be ignored.
Other than that, please do comment! I appreciate any and every comment I get and I promise to answer all of them (and if you have a blog, I will check that out as well). Possibly not immediately (I do sleep sometimes, I'm so tired from all the painkillers), but I will still at some point, so don't fret! I'm a nice girl on the inside, though sometimes difficult to believe when I get punished this badly with all these sufferings...

Secondly, I'm thinking of taking at least half a year off from my studies. I've been sick for so long that my mental health just can't take it anymore. I still have a few ECTS to go before I get my BA papers (thesis and exam done already), but after that I'll be a free woman for a while.
I've discussed the matter with a few teachers and have the possibility of writing a few essays per course, instead of attending class (which I can't from hospital) or exam since again I don't know if I can attend. I also live 200 km away from my university town, so travel is quite arduous especially if you're still basically on sick leave. Today I already wrote 5 pages on tuberculosis in literature, and tomorrow it will be time for some ethics of historical research. Also my Latin teacher is trying to think of essays for me to write. I have some really amazing teachers, I'm so lucky. They make my life much easier!

After I'm done with my BA, I'm thinking of not continuing to Master's in my own field. I am considering International Business and Administration since it seems to suit me much better, since I actually see a future in that field rather than in mine now. I'm not planning on becoming a teacher, a translator or a researcher so what else is there with English philology? I'd rather do something worthwhile. And not that literary research isn't worthwhile! It's just better someone else does it...
Also I am still young, so changing my "career path" now seems like a much better idea than later in life, when I would be too old to work in Finland once I graduate. I'd like to graduate before 30, thank you very much.

XOXO
Frankie Savage


PS. If  you have any tips on any good internet based game to play, I'd be very greatful! I don't have any games on my laptop and can't get the ones from home since my dad won't know where they are and explaining it would we way too difficult...