Snow, ponds and feeling better

Still in the hospital and probably will be here for quite some time to come, but I feel a hell of a lot better. The cortison helped to take away some of the swelling in my neck and throat - my lymph nodes are a bit swollen still but not a lot anymore and they don't hurt that much anymore. My throat still hurts like a bitch, but at least now (finally) I'm getting actual painkillers. I managed to plead long enough for them to agree to give me oxycodone when I really need it. Which is only about twice a day now, since the swelling has gone down.

I'm getting my antibiotics through the IV but everything else I'll be taking as pills, which is awesome. And I'm allowed to eat now that I can (thanks to the painkillers) and I feel so incredibly happy just to be able to drink a bottle of coke without wanting to die. Before it felt like one gulp could tear my throat in two but now it feels completely normal with just a slight sting. Slight sting. Jesus, one day and this much progress! It's fantastic!

And I'm pretty sure I'll be getting to speak to a psychiatric nurse soonish - I did ask the first day I was here, but it didn't go further, but today during the doctors' rounds, they told me that yes they know and I should get to speak to someone at some point. Which is great, 'cause I've really been feeling quite anxious here. I haven't had the time to see my regular psychologist, so this is already long overdue to speak to someone, so I really can't wait to load things off my chest!

Now that I have the catheter on my neck, I don't need to have an IV in my arm or hand or anywhere, so I can actually use my hands normally again! Which again, fantastic! Hopefully I'll only miss a few days of school next week and not the entire week. I don't know yet though, but all my teachers are fine with this so I'm sure I can deal with the courses even if I end up missing the entire week. Hope not though, we have team projects and I feel bad about not being there.

Also I got a text message from my post office that two shoes that I ordered have arrived! I cannot wait. They're awesome!

Yes, this painkiller might be making me a tad hyper, but hey, I'm almost pain free! So I don't care what's making me hyper, I am happy.

Every day I go out for a walk (and sorry to say also a smoke) and today there's snow on the ground as well! It's really pretty. Aurora hospital, though in Helsinki, is a nice place: right on a hill, old buildings scattered around, small unkempt park with a pretty little pond. Went to see the pond today and it was frozen over!

Rave Like There's No Tomorrow

I ♥♥♥ Coffee

I love coffee so much these days that I don't even know what to do anymore, if  I can't get a good cup in the morning, during the day and in the afternoon. It's no wonder I'm so frigging hyperactive...

I used to hate coffee when I was a bit younger, but now I think I only hated it because I never got a good cup in my life. Now we have one of those capsule machines, and though unbelievably annoyingly trashmaking, the coffees are a m a z i n g. I love a few of them especially, but all the espressos for example are to die for.

I also like the fact that though cookies are mostly good with tea and not coffee, there are few specific cookies that just taste better with coffee. And buns! Cinnamon rolls and things like that just taste better with coffee and not with tea. Maybe it's the cinnamon itself of in the buns the cardamom.

This is sort of what I looked like a few months back....I  don't smoke anymore

So true.

Today's thoughts and some military inspired fashion

I was so excited and hyperactive in the morning, that I really went on full overload of happiness, and it didn't really stop now either, since I spent the entire evening knitting, watching TV and checking a huge box full of old photos almost simultaniously, and found some real diamonds in between!
I'm going to put a big photoset on my wall at some point, because there are things that I really want to remember from my life. And old photos of all our dogs and our two cats (who've both passed away). The pictures are way too cute. Maybe I'll show you one or two when I get them scanned!

And at the same time, the entire day, I've basically worn my dad's old army uniform since it's super super warm. It's like forty or fifty years old but still in perfect condition and since he was in the alpine infrantry they had some pretty darn warm clothes and our house is freezing cold. Well not today, but mostly in the winter it is (today we started heating).

So here's some inspiration pictures I ravaged through after I realised that hey, wearing this dress shirt might actually make a pretty darn fashionable dress with a nice belt!