Today's Thoughts and MRIs

Woke up in the morning feeling nothing like I should after a good long sleep, seeing as I woke up at five am again and couldn't sleep any longer.
Waited till 7 am to really get up, but got bored a few moments later. Finally started eating breakfast, I usually skip the whole thing and it's not a good idea. I've started eating porridge now every day to keep me going in the morning. Drank a few cups of coffee too, but that doesn't help.

Today was dad's MRI, I went with him though I'm sure he could've done it without me. It's just nicer not being all alone in a hospital I think. We still don't know what's wrong with him and I'm really scared of what might come out of all of it. I'm really nervous for him. I hope it's something treatable, something cureable.

I should start drawing again, been itching to draw for days, but just haven't found the right sort of moment to do that. I need a good place to sit and watch something, but our living room is way too cold for drawing and my bed just doesn't give the right sort of seating for my drawing. I don't know. I'm rambling now.
I'm just nervous.

I should get a call from my future therapist either today or beginning of next week. Not going to see a shrink for my therapy but some other person, someone less important than a doctor I presume. I don't really care anymore, I feel fine now since half of my stress has been controlled. I did all my school work now and should get my BA out any day now! So I'm really excited about that and not at all nervous about school anymore. The only thing to do now is to empty the flat in Tampere and give back the keys to TOAS (Tampere student housing).

I need something to do. Something that'd keep me warm. I should clean too. I should get internet in my room so I could spend more time on my laptop,  but there's no internet cable there. So I have to sit here in the entree in the cold. It's not even that cold, but I feel cold. I feel cold all the time now. I don't even know why.

I I I I all my text start with that. So bye now. Hope for the best and prepare for the worst!

I ♥♥♥ Coffee

I love coffee so much these days that I don't even know what to do anymore, if  I can't get a good cup in the morning, during the day and in the afternoon. It's no wonder I'm so frigging hyperactive...

I used to hate coffee when I was a bit younger, but now I think I only hated it because I never got a good cup in my life. Now we have one of those capsule machines, and though unbelievably annoyingly trashmaking, the coffees are a m a z i n g. I love a few of them especially, but all the espressos for example are to die for.

I also like the fact that though cookies are mostly good with tea and not coffee, there are few specific cookies that just taste better with coffee. And buns! Cinnamon rolls and things like that just taste better with coffee and not with tea. Maybe it's the cinnamon itself of in the buns the cardamom.

This is sort of what I looked like a few months back....I  don't smoke anymore

So true.