Day XIII: My academic day

Yes, today will be a very academic day for me. I will stop thinking about all other things apart from essays. I will only write my essays.
As if that's going to happen. But no, seriously, I do need to write. I need to write alltogether about 60 pages of essays before the end of the year, which to be honest, sounds horrible but isn't all that much. I'm at the moment writing a 20 page essay, haven't gotten past page 2 but I still know I'll manage twenty pages in no time. It's always the subject that's the problem. If the subject feels bad, something boring or difficult, you know immediately that you can't write that much about it. But if it feels interesting, it doesn't matter how hard, you'll still do it.

I suppose I have mentioned about my studies and about the fact that I'm 20 ECTS (study points) away from being a Bachelor of Arts, yes? I studiy humanities, or to be precise, English philology (yes yes I know it sounds like philosophy but it has nothing to do with that). I've been studying for 3½ years now, and I feel it's time to move on. I will finish after my BA and start something else.
I would really like to get into a polytechnic and study international business, but we'll see if I get through the exams. In any case, I don't want to go to Tampere anymore, I want to stay at home, in the south. I want to stay at home with my dad and our dogs. So for at least half a year I won't attend any school.
I will get my BA done before the end of the year, which means that spring semester I will ask Kela not to pay me any benefits, and will just be on a unpaid holiday for the time being.

All this illness and being in hospital and the stress of school alltogether have made me realise that I really need some time off, I just can't do it anymore, not like this. I need some time just for me. Just for my family and enjoy my life so that I get my mental health into order as well.
I will also get rid of my apartment in Tampere, so I'll have to go there with my dad to pack up things, and then I'll sell all the furniture and give the keys back to TOAS.
This is my plan, and personally, I feel it's a good plan, I've gotten approval for it from many people I know, people who are very close to me, so I think it will go just right.
But now, it's time for me to write those essays, otherwise I'll be stuck in blogger all day!

Day XII: Food and Medicine

Food diary
Breakfast: 1½ dl berry yoghurt 120 kcal
                1½ dl strawberry soup 160 kcal
Lunch: 1 cup chickenricecurry 370 kcal
Dinner: 1 cup carrotsoupd 300 kcal
Snacks: 30 g Ässä mix candies 110 kcal
Alltogether: 1060 kcal


Medicine diary
Regulars+

14 g Colonsoft x2
5 mg Oxynorm oral x3
5 mg Oxycontin x2
x mg Neurontin x3
5 mg Cipralex x1
x mg Zyprexa x1


Exercise diary

My physiotherapist said it would be quite okay for me to walk around a bit everyday and that I'm allowed to do my muscle exercises, just as long as I don't go straining myself. So I've started taking 20 minute walks and doing my butt workout plus a few pushups, so I don't wither away whilst I lose weight!

Photos XVI: Rose tattoos

After the previous photopost I did, with the tattooed thinspiration, I felt I really have to do one with just tattoos, because like I said, I love tattoos. I think I've always loved them, since I was little, but I knew my parents hated them so I rarely talked about them. Now as I said, I have four, and I plans for about eight new ones. And I don't mean some really quickly thought ideas that I'll never get done, no, I have plans for eight tattoos and I've been thinking of them all for years now. So I will definitely get them done, and am quite sure, I won't regret them. Just need to keep them easily coverable, that's all.

Now this time I decided on roses for the theme because they're one of my favourite flowers. I love almost all flowers, even if you might not guess it, I quite a nature person, especially for cottage gardens and small dainty woods (forests), sort of the epitomy of English countryside, but my absolute favourite flowers are roses, lilies and foxgloves.
Also my second name means lily or rose in Hebrew.

I love this idea for rose tattoos

A bit of different approach to the b asic Alice in Wonderland tattoo - awesome!

My absolute favourite! I just ADORE the lace here!

Day XI: Food and Medicine

Food diary

Breakfast: 2 slices of ham 10 kcal
                5 slices of cucumber 1 kcal
Lunch: 1,7 dl proteinquark 190 kcal
           2 dl chocolate flavoured Nutridrink 302 kcal
Dinner: ½ cup fish soup (finally off mushed up food) 100 kcal
            2 dl cranberryquark 190 kcal
 Evening: 1 christmas star 200 kcal
               2 slices of cheese 30 kcal
Alltogther: 1023 kcal


Medicine diary

Regulars+

14 g Colonsoft x1
5 mg Oxycontin x2
5 mg Cipralex x1
x mg ofwhatevertheystillhaven'ttoldme x3
1 g Paracetamol x3
x mg Zyprexa x1

Day XI: Max Factor Whipped Creme Foundation review

I'm a subscriber of Kauneus&Terveys for a short while now and this time I got a small sample of MaxFactor's Whipped Creme Foundation in colour 55 Beige.

First of all, I almost never even try the sample foundation I get in magazines, since they're always just dreadful for me. I don't wear foundation, ever, the only thing I wear is a really small amount of BB cream and even that only between my nose and my upper lip and on my jaw.

This, however, looked promising, maybe because I was so bored and thought oh well might as well try. And it's a good thing I tried!

I thought the colour would be way too dark for me, since I'm usually quite pale in the face and beiges are usually very dark and slightly too peachy for me (my skin is very yellow), but suited me perfectly.
It makes my skin look absolutely flawless, it's really easy to apply, goes on so easily it felt like I was painting my face and it's really really light. I usually find foundations to be way too heavy and too thick and feel quite pressured when I'm wearing them, but this, I've had it on now for almost an hour and still don't feel like my face is covered in foundation and starting to get dry. It also isn't getting dry. It's exactly as it was an hour ago.

Also, the colour beige is quite yellow and very light, so it suits my skintone exactly. I didn't even have to do my neck fully, because it just was the exact same colour! I felt amazed.

Personally, I think this might be THE foundation for me, if I ever choose to leave my Maybelline 8-1 BB cream.

Also I did myself a french braid after I took a shower, hopefully my hair will be lovely and curly tomorrow when it's dry! I love having my hair sort of curly, because it makes it look thicker without making me look like a poodle. I do get an afro after shower if I don't use a lot of hair conditioner or if I'm dumb enough to blowdry my hair after the shower...but I like having  volume in it, just not like that.