GinaTricot Nail Polish Review

So I bought this nail polish from GinaTricot with the idea in my head that it's probably not going to be very good, but I really needed some nail polish that day, so I thought why not try. And I wasn't dissappointed!

I bought the shade 123 Blue Bug, which is actually a green nail polish that bends slightly towards yellow and brown. It's absolutely beautiful on!

+ cheap
+ good brush, easy to apply
+ good coverage, doesn't necessarily need a second coat
+ stays long (and that's saying something, cause usually my nails repell nail polish)
+ easy to find since there are so many GinaTricots
+ dries relatively fast, even with second coat on

I couldn't find any minuses whatsoever, so there you go, it's an excellent nail polish!

Pastel Goth Wishlist

If I could only get some of these or look as good as these people do, that would be awesome. But hey, I am on my way there, 10 kilos down already, only 20 kilos to go! And to be honest, I know it sounds like a lot, but it really isn't.

Selfiemania: Hospital table edition

Just felt like it.

Always look on the bright side of life

Always look on the bright side of death.

Every day I try to stay positive and look at the good things that have happened:
- I can walk without a cane now, I don't need a wheelchair anymore
- My CRP levels have steadily gone down without the help of antibiotics or anything
- My hemoglobin levels have stayed the same and not sunk, which is great, I'm still anemic, but not that much at least
- I can eat and drink without any problems
- My legs and hands aren't as swollen as they were
- I have regained the use of my right hand, which is amazing

But.

Still I can't help but be afraid of what they might find in theiir biopsy of my small intestine. Do I have cancer? What if I have cancer? Do I need chemo?
I'm 23 going on 24, can I even be released from hospital for my own  birthday party or do I have to stay here that long.
Will I live to see the day that I turn 30. Will I ever have children and see them grow up. I would love to have children, I want to see them grow up. I don't want to be under 30 with a deadly disease.
Who would even want me? Who would be so sick in the head that they would want to fall in love and marry a woman who's always sick and might die and leave them a single parent?

These questions keep running through my head and I cannot shut them down. I wish I could. I wish I could just have an off switch for thoughts like that, but I don't. I try my best to be happy and positive but I'm so afraid and feel so alone in the evening and just want to fall asleep and wake up healthy and above all NORMAL.

Selfiemania: For those who don't think I'm Fat

So I took a little photoshoot, since I was absolutely bored and tired, and wanted to show to some people who seem to think I'm not fat that I actually am fat, and here's the proof.