Photos XXX: Colourful hair is like sunlight in this time of the year

Though I do prefer having my hair black these days, I can't not look back at the not so long ago days when I still had hair the colour of the raindbow. It's just always been something very beautiful to be, colours in hair just make my life so much happier especially in this dreary time of the year. Even if the colour is in someone else's hair!

The first advent, candles and good food, singing and rejoicing, and oh that calendar...

So today is really the first of advent, which for me alone is something pretty big, since I do feel myself as a christian, or more specifically catholic. I'm not in any church at the moment, it's way too big of a hassle to join them, not to mention I've never liked the dogmatism of the church system. I believe in the fundamental things that define catholicism from protestants, and that's the choice.

You have a choice to sin and to go to hell, or to not sin and not go to hell. In any protestant religion, though you may have been taught different just to keep you believing, you don't have that choice. A Lutheran will wait forever in purgatory for the "final reckoning" and then go to heaven, while all others are either sent to hell or to heaven, doesn't matter what you do.
So. I don't want to be in heaven with a bunch of lunatics, I'd rather go to hell as a bad catholic and spend my time there with all those lunatics.

Anyway, for my dad, this time means nothing, I think he's probably atheist or just doesn't give a shit. He doesn't give a shit of most that sort of religious mumbo jumbo stuff, so it's advent just for me.

We went to Gigantti today to buy me that new phone (it's charging right now, I hope it works), and I'm really really excited about it. I've never had a Windows phone (well not exactly a Windows phone since it's Nokia, but still Windows) and am quite unsure if I'll learn how to use it. My Samsung was so simple to use, I think anyone or even some things could use it.
I'm so excited, and I just can't hide it. Dadumdadumda. Also bought a yellow cover for it, will buy a better one at some point. Bought some lense safety thingies, but they sucked, those "peel off before use" and "peel off after use" neither would peel off at any time. Yes, going to complain to them, most definitely. It's ten euros I just can't afford to throw away like that.

We also went to IKEA and got me a really heavy and thick blanket, since I only have like thin summer ones and I am freezing to death in my bed. I have four different blankets, all of which are warm and I slept with my clothes on. I was coooooolddd. So got a better blanket, maybe I don't need all those clothes anymore.

I also got to open the first window in my advent calendar. I never buy one since I get one for free from the Donald Duck I subscribe to. Yes, I subscribe Donald Duck. I love them. Absolutely LOVE  them. Can't get enough. Before I thought of my career change path, I was going to do my MA thesis on Donald Duck. So yeah, I love them. And so should you! *glare*
Also, for the advent, I decided we'll eat those waaaay too long in the freezer been venison steaks, so today we're eating venison! I've actually never had a venison steak before.

First Day of Christmas: Flower Brooch DIY

I felt this awesome idea had to start my DIY Christmas calendar on my blog! Just had to! I think, as someone who doesn't wear brooches like ever, this could be an awesome idea for your (and my) Christmas tree. All the felt flowers in all different colours would be amazing, especially if one could add some lights to them or maybe some glitter!

DIY Dahlia Corsage

All but one picture is from the site itself, the last one is from Pinterest

Photos XXVIII: Foxes are loveable! Oh and I'm home again!

It seems as though many people when seeing pictures of foxes in Finland go immediately to the barking mode. Have to call them sick, unhealthy, dangerous, have mange, shouldn't be allowed near people. Why on earth not? A fox is about the size of a big big house cat. What's so dangerous about it? Not to mention most of the pictures I have seen in the news of foxes have had beautiful thick coats of red and black, nothing to be seen of mange. The reason they come to humans is food.
If there was enough food for them in the wild, and enough shelter, they wouldn't have to come to humans, it's not like they're tamed. So get your asses up your couches and start looking at ways to help the foxes rather than want to shoot them from your windows!

I like foxes. All foxes.

Also, I just got home from hospital today, and am feeling very lucky to have such an amazing home, but I feel so so cold, since it is actually really cold in our house and I feel I need to wear outerwear indoors, it's horrible. I wish I had the coat of a polar fox, but I suppose they feel cold as well. I do have a fur coat, but it's a bit too fancy to wear just to watch the Simpsons....

Anyway, tomorrow we're planning on going down to Gigantti to look at phones for me, so that maybe I get that Lumia for Christmas or my birthday which is also coming up. It'll be about three hundred euros, but thankfully I really need a phone to phone people, so I'm allowed to have something so expensive. Also the bed, I'm getting the bed. It's supposed to arrive in a week or so, and I can't wait.
I've already done so much work in our bedrooms (because the switch is sort of still on-going, we haven't switched bedrooms completely yet, like all our stuff and that sort of thing). I feel really tired, and I'm going to feel even more so, but I haven't had a bad pain spike tonight, so I'm really hopeful that I won't get a panic attack. Maybe, and this is just me being hopeful, having diazepam in the house will also calm me down enough to not get one in the first place. Wishful thinking.
Oh and I've eaten waaaaay to much today as well, so no list. I hope to fix this problem for tomorrow.

But back to foxes:

Starting over and leaving this ward and this hospital

(Hopefully for quite some time too).

Even though I was in extreme pain, and am still on really heavy painkillers even now, I do feel a lot better. I'm having less pain issues, and fewer panic attacks. (Though at the point I started writing this I had just had a panic attack about fifteen minutes ago). Now never mind that, because I have, all things considering, had a rather good experience here. The dctors are wonderful, the nurses lovely and all the rest of the workers are fantastic as well. So I can't really complain. I can complain about my symptoms but not of my treatment.

I'm getting psychiatric help as well, which at this point in my life, feels absolutely necessary and I don't know how to thank everybody. I may have to come back at some point and bring some Christmas presents!

From now on, I won't be counting days, so you won't see me writing Day something on the post line, I will write smething else. Because I haveno point of writing at home while counting days.It's my home, I don't count days of being there, I just enjoy them.