Today's thoughts, tomorrow's photoshoot and some workout

I bought a new weight today and a yoga matt, super happy now! The weight's 16 kg so it's perfect for deadlifting and such, wonderful. I feel my muscles growing by the second!
And the matt I really needed since I have nothing and doing ab exercises on hardwood floors hurts a LOT.

Tomorrow I have a photoshoot signed up, during the day and in natural daylight, so I'm really nervous what kind of make up I should put. I should really ask the photographer also if he's got some hopes for the make up.

I'm not writing much today, I'm feeling really tired and fully exercised so I feel exhausted in all possible ways. I'm starting over with my weight loss plan, so the side bar there ->
will look a bit different from now on, since I'm seriously restarting the whole process.
I'm also on a rather unnatural diet of eggs and ramen noodles, but don't worry, I eat my greens and fruits ;)

How are you guys? How are your lives going?

Happiness in the New Year

All pictures from Tumblr.

✩ ✩ New Year's Resolutions ✩ ✩

As the year 2014 is about to begin, I need to put myself some goals for this year. I have had such a year before, that now I want to really focus and try this out. I don't really usually go for promises I don't know if I can keep, but I'd love to try this out at least once. So here are my 10 resolutions for the year 2014:

1. Lose at least 10 kilos

2. Try to work on not being afraid of hospitals - they are your friends

3. Be a better person towards others - don't make others feel bad on purpose

4. Join the gym in Sipoo

5. Go wandering and travel more

6. Visit friends and family in Switzerland again

7. Get into your desired educational facility

8. Learn a new language

9. Find one new friend

10. Get things sorted out with my ex

Photos from Tumblr.

Starting over and leaving this ward and this hospital

(Hopefully for quite some time too).

Even though I was in extreme pain, and am still on really heavy painkillers even now, I do feel a lot better. I'm having less pain issues, and fewer panic attacks. (Though at the point I started writing this I had just had a panic attack about fifteen minutes ago). Now never mind that, because I have, all things considering, had a rather good experience here. The dctors are wonderful, the nurses lovely and all the rest of the workers are fantastic as well. So I can't really complain. I can complain about my symptoms but not of my treatment.

I'm getting psychiatric help as well, which at this point in my life, feels absolutely necessary and I don't know how to thank everybody. I may have to come back at some point and bring some Christmas presents!

From now on, I won't be counting days, so you won't see me writing Day something on the post line, I will write smething else. Because I haveno point of writing at home while counting days.It's my home, I don't count days of being there, I just enjoy them.