Got my CrazyFactory package today!

Finally I got my package, sad I can't pierce yet 'cause my left arm is immobile thanks to the IV in the bend...
But I did get all of the things and I'm so superduperhappyhappyjoyohsuchjoy! I'll get my septum and labret back, plus two new earlobe piercings, so everything I had before but better! Hopefully...I'm always a bit apprehensive about piercing the septum, since the first time I did it, it went a bit crooked. The second time was perfect, and I don't know if I can beat perfect!

But this is what I got:
- 10 single packaged sterile needles of 1.6
- 2 semi cirles of 1 cm diameter, 1.2, and 3&4 mm balls
- 2 semi cirles of 1.2 cm diameter, 1.2, and 3&4 mm balls
- 2 longer labrets, 1.2, and 4 mm balls

So hopefully I'll get something like this done:

30 Day Blog Challenge - Days 2-4

This time I'm going to do three days at once, because days 3 and 4 are going to be answered very shortly.

Where I want to be in 10 years? 
- I want to have a child - boy or girl, I don't care
- I want to have a job that supports me and doesn't want to make me kill myself; doesn't need to be the best job in the world, doesn't need to pay the most, just enough so I don't cry myself to sleep because I have no money to pay my phone bill
- Own my own place - alright, I'm halfway there, but I don't want to stay in Finland for the rest of my life and I don't want to necessarily live in a 300 square metre house with a very small family or say just one dog if the kid part doesn't come to pass...
- In a country that I enjoy living in; sure I'll need to test a few places before I find the right place, but maybe Switzerland, Canada, Germany or Sweden? Something relatively familiar, close to my happy place and yet not Finland.

I think that's it. In 10 years I'll be 33½ and I'm not expecting to have everything by then. My health and a home are basically the biggest things, and with my health I need enough money to pay for hospital visits, so yeah. Well, not too out there I suppose, but hopefully down to earth enough to actually happen by the time I'm 34.

My views on drugs and alcohol?
Alcohol: don't drink too much, no need to be a teatotaller, but don't overdo it, it's really not healthy and it makes you look like an idiot. I speak from experience.
Drugs: this medium is too public to post my views here, I'm sorry.

My views on religion?
Religion is not needed for a person to have ethics and morals - and I don't care if you believe in God or don't believe, or what God/gods you believe in, just as long as your life's mission is not to judge others for not believing what you believe in. Okay? Okay.

So hospital again

So I'm in the hospital again: nothing serious, no worries, just really painful and very mysterious.

You see my lymph nodes in my neck swell up and my throat is swollen and extremely painful - nobody knows why or how, just that Valavir (valaciclovir) takes it away. However, before that happens I can't eat or drink. So I need an IV.

Now I was able to push food down with the help of the painkillers, so hopefully I won't stay here too long. I get the antivirals plus paracetamol and Tramal. It's a mild opiate. It's way stronger than plain old paracetamol but calling it an opiate feels somewhat funny. At least with the low doses - I don't get side effects or anything and even the painkilling capacity is slightly laughable. But it's definitely an improvement to paracetamol!

Hopefully I'll get out soon, but till then, I'll write from here. Tomorrow my dad should come and bring my laptop so I won't have to write from my phone.

Also: how bad can veins get? Five (5) people tried to find a vein for blood samples and after about fifteen stabs they found one miserably slow one in my left foot! I am not a happy camper.

Cold, Sun and Billie

Though she's a two and a half year old now, she's still just a puppy. 

A complete and absolute puppy.

Because of the lovely weather (it's pretty cold, but it's beautiful with the sunshine!) we decided to go out for a bit, just to run around the yard.

Billie was excited to put it mildly.

30 Day Blog Challenge - On Being Single

Heya, found this interesting 30 day challenge on Pinterest and thought I might try it out. It's just a 30 day post challenge, so a topic for each day and do one blog post on that said topic. I might not do one every day, but I will go according to the list.

So I'll start with Day 1:
I am single, so will have to discuss that. I've been single for a while now, I tend to have really short relationships if that, and though I really do like being with someone special, I don't want to be in a relationship for the sake of being in a relationship. So if I don't honestly think I could survive with someone indefinitely I don't even bother starting something up; I don't think it's fair for anyone.

Anyway, I like being single. Sure it gets a tad lonely sometimes listening to all these taken people talk about their happy relationships, but no, I'm not alone. I would probably feel lonely in a relationship as well. At least at times. And okay, I don't get to hug and kiss and cuddle and whatnot with anyone, but that's mostly fine. If I feel really desperate for affection I have a big teddy bear at home willing to hug me. Sure she's a dog, but still. Warm+fuzzy+enormous = good hug.

Fine it's not as good as from a guy/girl you love, but it's enough for desperation at least!

I've been single for most of my life, so I've gotten extremely used to it. It gives a level of freedom, I wouldn't have in a relationship. Not that I couldn't deal with that, I don't need to go out and flirt with anyone, but still, it is a plus for being single. I don't need to make time for anyone, I don't need to move in with anyone (I can stay in my lovely house and enjoy my quiet alone time) and I don't need to feel guilty about having a bad day or landing in hospital - because I don't want to hurt anyone I love so having to tell something like that to a loved one is for me pretty painful.

And to be honest, I really do need my quiet alone time. Just because I'm really social and these days mostly an extravert, doesn't mean I want to spend my entire life in the company of others. Ooooh no.
Which is why I'd be perfectly content (at least for a while) in a long distance relationship. Sadly people these days don't seem to value the deep emotional connection you get with someone, if you are away from them for longer. People just want everything RIGHT NOW EVERYTHING. It's very frustrating, how are people these days to impatient that they can't wait like three months for someone? What about a year? Ooh no. It's weird in my opinion. If you love someone, you love them no matter what distance.

Yeah, I really do like being single. And I'd like being in a relationship just as much. I'm just not in a relationship. It's one those things - when you're single, you think how lovely it would be to be with someone and when you're with someone, you think how lovely it would be to be single. I don't really care either way. I'm not deprived of love in my life and I love plenty of people. Just not in a romantic way. Besides, it's kinda uncomfortable telling my dad I have a boyfriend and he's coming over (especially 'cause none of my boyfriends have been exactly "normal") so it's quite a bit easier to just not date anyone and be happy. And I am. Quite happy with my life.


......but I'd still like to meet someone wonderful, some nice guy who smiles a lot and is a geek and gets my brand of craziness.