Photos XIV: Reds Reds Reds

Today I feel like it's a red day. Both in a good and maybe in a bad way, but red is definitely my colour of choice for today.
It also happens to be my favourite colour! It's such a sensual colour, so exciting, slightly exotic, but at the same time such a strong, quite aggressive colour. It's one of those love-hate colours if there's a lot of it. Especially in clothes or make up, it divides people. I love red.

Day X: Food and Medicine

Food diary
Breakfast: ½ cheese toast 110 kcal
                1 berry yoghurt 140 kcal
Lunch: 1 dl of burgermeatmush with mashed potatoes 200 kcal
           ½ Suzette mintchocolate 100 kcal
Dinner: 1 tblsp of something that looked like vomit 20 kcal
            2 tblsp whipped peach quark 30 kcal
Snack: ½ muffin 70 kcal
           1 eggpastry 300 kcal
           1 piece of chocolate 30 kcal
Alltogether: 1000 kcal


Medicine diary
Regulars+
7 g Colonsoft
10 mg Oxynorm x3
10 mg Oxycontin x2
10-20 mg Diazepam x1
5 mg Cipralex x2
x mg Zyprexa
x mg ofwhateveritis x3
1 g Paracetamol x3
And I'm sure I've forgotten something....

Exercise
Squat with no weights x20
40 minute walk with my ex from my hospital to the children's hospital and back. I wanted to see the old ward where I was treated when I got my heart transplant. There were people who still remembered me, eventhough it's been almost 12 years now. It felt good but I was exhausted afterwards...

Day IX: Sleepiness, essays and friends

I had a lovely day today. Though I had that terrible panic attack last night after my tomography, I slept like a baby throughout the entire night (no wonder, I was so drugged). My nurse told me I babbled something about only seeing blue things and that she asked me if I was okay, and my answer was a very happy "Ohhh yeess".
So yeah.

Painkillers are starting to work, I got some new ones above all the rest, and I don't get injections anymore, only Oxynorm as liquid, which is sort of awesome and sort of horrid since it tastes dreadful. I also felt like eating today, which is why I ate a lot of sweets. Shouldn't really, but hey, it's almost weekend.

I woke up at six am, which is when I also started writing my ten page essay on why christianity became the dominant religion in ancient Rome. It's not that easy writing an essay when you're so drugged that you can barely even read your source texts. But I don't mind, I've written seven pages thus far, so I'm doing quite well. I think I'll write one page more today and then the rest tomorrow. Or just all the rest tomorrow. Then it's off to other essays!

I probably mentioned this earlier, but I'm probably going to start studying something else next Autumn and now in Spring I'm just going to have a nice long holiday.

Got some visitors as well, other than my dad. Actually my dad didn't come at all today, because I had so many other visitors. Three of my friends from Tampere came to visit me, one tutorcolleague, her friend and one of my freshers. I love them, they're such lovely people! It was wonderful seeing them after such a long time.

Also, all these painkillers are making me really really drowsy so all the time I feel like sleeping. Which is why I'm going to say goodnight to you now and have some really nice dreams!
Here's a few pictures of sleepy corgies and a picture of me from this morning, after I just woke up:

Day IX: Food and Medicine

Food diary
Breakfast: 1½ dl strawberry yoghurt 120 kcal
                1 dl berry soup 100 kcal
Lunch: 1 dl mushed salmon and peas 200 kcal
           1 danish pastry 400 kcal
Dinner: 2 tblsp of godonlyknowswhat 50 kcal
           1 small ice cream 200 kcal
Evening snack: 1 dl Gefilus yoghurt 95 kcal
Alltogether:  1145 kcal


Medicine diary
Regulars+
10 mg Oxycontin x2
5 mg Oxynorm oral x2
5 mg Cipralex x1
x mg somethingtheyhavetoldmethenamebutiforgot x2
14 g Colonsoft x2
1 g Paracetamol x3

Exercise 

A bit of walking around, but I'm way too tired from al the medication to actually do anything. The most exercise I've gotten is writing about 7 pages of a 10 page essay! I did walk around with my friends who came to visit! I was so excited, they're lovely <3

Day VIII: Food and Medicine

Food diary

Breakfast: 2 slices of toast ham (just ham, no toast) 6 kcal
Lunch: ½ cup mashed something  ~200 kcal
Dinner: 1 Magnum 320 kcal
            1 Daim cake 200 kcal
            1 Nutridrink 300 kcal
Alltogether: 1026 kcal

Medicine diary
Regulars plus:
14 g Colonsoft x2
1 g Paracetamol x3
10 mg Oxycontin x2
5 mg Cipralex
20 mg Diazepam
20 mg Diazepam
1 pill Zyprexa
Some new painkiller of which I do not know the name
6 mg Oxanest IM x3
6 mg Oxynorm oral liquid x1

Exercise

Went to the cafeteria with my dad, like always if I'm standing. Did some butt exercises in the bathroom (there's a ballet pole for those people who can't walk without help) and hyperventilated enough to lose a lot of calories. I'd rather be fat than get panic atttacks. Oh well.

I hope tomorrow is better! At least today wasn't awful, it just ended on a pretty bad note, since I got another attack.  I really liked the psychiatric nurse who came to see me, and she'll be back on Monday!

Also here are some cute animal babies: